19/04/18 -continued
we both looked at each other awkwardly
i could feel the nervousness start to sink into my skin.
i looked around trying to avoid eye contact as little spikes of anxiety where pricked into my skin.
i swiftly turned around so i wouldn't have to face him and stared to swipe my items once again.
idiot.
i'm an absolute idiot.
i could feel his presence behind me yet i just stood and scan my items as if he's not there.
well done.
i could hear a bit of movement behind me, i'm guessing he's folded his arms waiting for me.
yay.
great.
i took the last item and tried to scan it as slow as possible, i could feel his eyes tracing my every movement.
and all of a sudden, i felt the item be released from my hands.
it was now in his and he quickly swiped it across, shoved the money in and took the bag of items.
all in a second.
i didn't even get to process anything.
i stood there no thought going through my brain as he grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the store with him.
now that i was fully aware what was happening my heart started to speed up, i didn't say anything though i just let myself be dragged by him.
omg where holding hands.
yay.
he suddenly let go and we were at the car park.
we both stopped and just stared at eachother, no word leaving our mouths just pure eye contact.
"um-"
"i'm sorry," he cut me off.
"are those flowers for your girlfriend?" i asked completely ignoring the apology.
he furrowed his eyebrows in confusion before glancing at the flowers and then back at me,
"what? no," he slightly laughed. "they're for my mom,"
"your mom? i raised my eyebrow, "is it her birthday?"
"no not really she just likes roses," he smiled looking down at them.
wow what a great son.
"you seem like a good son," i nodded and smiled wanting this to be over with already.
he sighed and dropped the flowers onto the top of his car, he then proceeded to lean on his car and folded his arms, his eyes were stuck to the floor and confusion grew.
"my moms in the hospital," he said quietly.
oh shit.
"oh shit i'm so sorry," i generally feel bad for him.
"it's not your fault," he smiled, "my moms been ill for as long as i remember, kind of similar situation with you, i work to support my mom and all of my free time is spent on her, i never really get to do what i want to do because i want to see my mom, i'm scared that if i don't see her when i can i'll never get to see her again, i never managed to gain many friends because of this and that's why i couldn't open up to you," he said in one go and then took a deep breath to calm himself down, " i am sorry,"
oh wow.
"i'm so sorry," i said with sorrow in my voice.
and then i did what my first instinct was when somebody was upset.
i wrapped my arms around his back and pulled him close to me, letting him rest his head on top of my head.
i hugged him.
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sorry king chapter again :((
