19/04/18 -continued
i rolled my eyes.
the hell is going on.
i'm not dealing with this bullshit
i broke the out eye contact without a second thought.
and out of random
and it was as if
some feeling just vanished.
some sort of feeling left me.
but i ignored it and moved my shoulders so i could be able to walk away from the area were his other hand wasn't placed.
but before i even managed to do that his hand caught my shoulder and pulled me back.
my heart started racing, it was as if my whole body was getting pumped up with adrenaline out of nowhere, i glanced left and sure enough his other hand was now placed on the wall.
i was trapped.
after a few seconds i sighed in defeat and forced myself to look back into his eyes.
i raised my eyebrows before speaking, "what?,"
he sighed letting his shoulders slightly relax before looking away and then once again looking back at me.
"i don't get why your overreacting, we're nothing but strangers, and i don't think of you any different now that you've opened up to me because we are strangers"
strangers.
something hurts.
it hurts so bad.
it feels like i've just been stabbed.
hot tears starts dropping down my cheek.
i cant stop them.
why does it hurt so much?
he went silent, i could taste the shock it was practically radiating of him.
why do i feel so hurt?
"im sorry i didn't mean to..." his words faded away as he tried to think of something to say.
and then it hit me.
it hit me so hard.
it makes sense now.
"you were the first person who cared about how i felt," i said quietly, the tears starting to stain my cheek and run down my neck.
"what-"
i sudden burst of confidence rose in me as snapped my eyes towards his before saying,"you were the first person who ever cared about how i felt but then you lied to me," i chocked out through the tears with an unstable voice.
my heart hurt but it was rapidly beating inside my chest.
but i managed to find it.
i managed to find what was hurting me.
and with that, i pushed through his wall like arm and walked off.
without looking back.
