Secretly Dating, Paul Klein (On-going)

Kabanata 9

Kabanata 9
Birthday

Jasper texted me, He said he will be here for ten minutes. Ready na rin ako. I am just waiting for him to come here. It's Saturday. Pagabi na past six nang gabi. Ngayon ang birthday ni Jasper kaya ko s'ya hinihinatay kasi ang sabi nito ay susunduin niya ako.

I looked at my phone. I saw my Mom's number registered on the screen. I almost screamed in shock when I saw it. I open it immediately.

Mom: Merry Christmas daughter, where will you want to spend your Christmas? Will be home for next year, January. We're in Italy.

Agad din na nawala ang ngiti ko sa nabasa. 'Your?' Hindi ako tanga para hindi malaman ang kung ano ang ibig sabihin ni Mommy. She wants me to spend Christmas alone...Again. Well, I am literally alone. They didn't come home for the last five months at kung uuwi man ay nasa office ako o nasa school nagkakasilisihan kami.

Manang Flora have her Christmas break, umuwi ito sa probinsya nila sa Cagayan De Oro. Louna and Tita Anne will be on the State on Decemeber 23 eh December 19 na ngayon. Doon sila mag-celebrate ng Christmas together with Tito, her husband and the father of Louna. While Lisa, Apple and Suho will celebrate their chirstmas together with their family abroad.

I type my reply.

Zoe: I'll think about it, Mom. But I guess, I'll be going to Cebu. I miss you Mom. I love you; You and Daddy.

I hit the sent.

I rest my back on the sofa and waited patiently for my Mom's reply. Agad naman na tumunog ang cellphone ko. It's from my Mom again.

Mom: Okay, I'll send your allowance. Five hundred Thousand. Just let me knew if you need more money. We'll send it to you in no time. Enjoy your Christmas eve in Cebu.

Matagal akong nakipagtitigan sa screen ng phone ko. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin. I am... speechless. Bakit ang lamig nang pakikitungo nito sa'kin. She didn't even response to my 'I miss you' and 'I love you'. I hate to think of this but I think they love their money more than to me.

Sinabi ko na lang ang Cebu when in fact I knew already how to spend my Christmas. For years that they didn't come home to celebrate with me. I already coped up with the situation. I go to bars and drink my ass out. Partying Alone. It's pretty simple. I want to get wasted in every Christmas eve para pagkalabas ko nang Bar at pag-uwi ko ng bahay ay matutulog na lang ako.

It is not a good example to many, but that's how my life works when I'm sad and if the pain is too much for me to handle if I'm sober.

And to atleast forget the repressed pain inside. Kasi, kahit anong pilit ko na kalimutan o isan-tabi pero hindi ko pa rin maloloko ang sarili ko na nasasaktan ako sa pagbabalewala nila sa'kin.

Pero, I still love them. I know may dahilan sila. Pero parang hindi ko pa kaya'ng intindihin ang dahilan nila kasi mag-tatanong pa rin ako sa kanila ng 'Bakit' at ang 'What ifs' ko.

Napabalik lang ako sa huwisyo ng nag flash ang number ni Jasper. He's calling.

I answered the call.

"Hello, Zoe... Nasa labas na ako! You're ready?" Ang malambing na boses nito ang bumungad sa panrinig ko.

I got up and nag-lakad na palabas nang bahay. Bitbit ko na rin ang regalo ko sa kaniya.

"Yup! palabas na ako nang bahay." Ani ko sa kaniya.

Nakita ko naman ang car nito pagkalabas ko ng gate. He's leaning on the hood of his car and ng makita ako ay agad ito'ng tumayo ng tuwid at sinalubong ako.

"You're stunning!!" Bulalas nito. Bakas sa mukha nito ang pag-hanga.

I am just wearing an army green flounce sleeve Self Belted tartan dress paired with faux strappy open-toe block heels. Nilugay ko lang din ang buhok ko at nag-lagay ng crystal flower clip sa gilid ng buhok.