Maddend Heart ~Ivar The Boneless~

Chapter 15// Runaway

Its so cold. My eyes are so heavy.
I want to fight myself up there but I'm just so exhausted. Every part of my body is burning in need for oxygen as the ice cold water stings on my flesh.

Floating in agony I feel like time has stopped for me when the sound of a horn suddenly rings in my ears and I open my eyes.
What could it be?
But then I remember why I'm in the water.
I have to go up there!

With all the strength that is left in my shivering bones I swim to the surface.
I take a big breath feeling my heartbeat going crazy. Just right there in front of me I see the boat of Bjorn and I laugh in disbelief. It worked!

"Hella?!" Hvisterk asks confused looking at me.
The boat get slower as I swim towards it and finally stops as Hvisterk helps me on the boat. He lifts me up by slinging his arms und mine.

"What-what are you doing here?" he asks pulling off one of his coats to hang it over my shoulders.

"Ddiiid you rreally think I would let you lleavee witthout mee?" I shiver and shake as the Ships continue to sail. Hvisterk sits me down and looks towards his relived half brother for answers.

"She's our best chance for a peaceful journey. She's one of them, if they see that they'll hopefully see us as friends."

"Does Ivar know about this?" Hvisterk asks with big eyes.

"He set me free- I'm a free Woman."
I mumble feeling so cold.

"You really think you're free when Ivar is still living? He'll kill you."

"That's enough Hvisterk let her rest a bit." Bjorn interrupts him.

"Your belongings are here, but I haven't found your friend. She is probably in another Ship." he whispers as he walks towards the head of the dragon ship, leaving me alone in the back.
I did it. I really did it. I freed myself from him. But why do I feel guilty, like I made a mistake? I'm breaking something inside of me, probably in Ivar too but there never was a chance for whatever I saw in us.

And now I'm never seeing these Blue eyes again and there is no one to blame but myself....

Ivars Pov

"Ubbe have you seen Hella?" I ask as he's coming into the great Hall.

"Not since this morning, why?"

"Oh, no specific reason." I mumble deep in thought.

"You fell, didn't you?" he asks laughing.

"Shut up I would never fall for someone as crazy as her!" I yell getting angry. Who does he think he is?

"Oh what a fitting couple it is then." he answers laughing.

Fuck him, fuck all of them! I never wanted to kill my brother as much as I want to now!
I fall from my chair and crawl towards her room.

"Don't follow me!" I spit towards Margarethe who instantly stands still.
As I push the door open I'm hit by the chilly temperature in here. As I look around I notice that all her belongings are gone. Where the hell is she?
I make my way towards the bed seeing a piece of paper on the furs.

I take it and see some kind of runes on it. But none of them made sense to me.
Did she really think I could read this?
But then it hits me.
She left.
She ran away.
She really left me.

How could she? I feel something in my chest , almost like a tear, something I've never felt before. How could she betray me like that? After I told her how I feel. I gave her nothing but the truth! A mixture of rage and disappointment washes over me and I want to rip every little piece of furniture in this room apart.

I turn around when I hear something fall to the ground, there she is again.
Oh how she came to the right time.

Hellas POV

A couple of days later...

I'm waken up by screams, thunder, water.
Screams of pain are roaring all over.
I'm back in the cold water again, but my lungs are in no need of air. I look around seeing man drowning and ships sinking. As I look around I see a mast and on that Ivar.
I swim to him hoping I could make him swim up there.

"Ivar!" I yell but my screams are useless in the crashing waves.

"No you cannot die!" I yell as I try to rip the rope from is abdomen but my fingers go through. Is this a dream?

But suddenly I'm shaken awake and I'm no longer in the water, but on a boat.
Hvisterk hovers over me shaking me in attempt to wake me up.

"Hella!" he yells with wide eyes.

"I'm here ok, I'm awake." I mumble sitting up still shocked by this vivid dream. I look up seeing land all around us.

"Where are we?" I ask furrowing my brows in confusion .

"We're visiting my uncle. Are you coming with us?"

"No I'd rather stay here." I mumble standing up.

"We'll be back soon, but keep your eyes out for anything suspicious."  he says as they head off, leaving the rest of us sitting here.

I still think about what I just dreamt, it felt a little to real to be just something out of my imagination.

"Helena listen." someone suddenly says and as I look up it's Augustus sitting on the railing of the boat.

"August!" I exclaim happily.

"I have to warn you your dream wasn't just a dream. The ships Ragnar Lothbrok and Ivar sailed on sank during a storm."
he warns me. I feel my heart stopping for a second. This can't be true he can't just die!
I try my best not to cry but it's harder than I thought when it feels like your heart has just been ripped out.

"Is he dead?" I ask feeling my chest ache.

"I don't know Hella." he confesses.

So I really lost him now?
I should be dancing in joy but I feel quite the opposite. I feel like my world has stopped.

Heyy
So this and the next Chapters are super short since it just didn't feel right to shove them all in one :) So dont worry that this is all you got for today, theres s lot more to come :)