Maddend Heart ~Ivar The Boneless~

Chapter 41// The devils work

I'm the Devil's worst nightmare
I've tasted fire
I've felt the burn of bittersweet

It was an emotional morning. Ubbe an Hvitserk would leave us. And though Ivar and I are finally together I knew that the time would come where I had to hurt them or him.

And that hurt me almost more than the fact that they were leaving. I'm not ready to fight against them on the battlefield.

I had to basically drag Ivar out of our bed to say his goodbyes to his brothers. And yes you've heard right, our bed. He not only claimed my heart but now my bed as well which means sleepless nights for me. But I'd rather be kept awake by his snoring or his lips than by self-destructive thoughts and ghosts of my past.

An "I'll see you later" and a kiss on the top of my head was all I got as he left the room in a hurry leaving me all alone.

I left just minutes after him in hope I'd get to speak with the brothers before they go. As I walk through the streets looking for them I see two figures on top of the wall. I go up as I recognize the figures as both of the brothers. It doesn't take long till they recognise me either as the stop to talk. I raise my brows feeling a little hurt that they had stopped to talk because I was near. Have they lost their trust in me?

But that weird tension quickly fades as Hvitty comes towards me hugging me tightly. I wrap my arms around him as well as I gesture Ubbe to join us. He wraps his arms around us and we stay like this for a moment. I breathe in their sent feeling at home. I'll miss them more than I thought I would.

We break apart and I look at both of them. Ubbe looks tired of it all his decision was made a long time ago. But something in Hvitserks expression tells me that he isn't so sure about his decision. Hvitserk never really seemed too opinionated while his brothers where making decisions. He's probably torn between Ivar and Ubbe.

"I will miss you two." I mumble pouting. Though we need had much time for each other it still warmed my heart to see them every day.

"You could come with us as long as you still can." Ubbe suggest but I quickly deny.

"No you know I can't. But I don't want us to go apart like you did with Ivar." I reply hoping that Ubbe would feel the same way.

"Well it's a bit too late for that. You chose your side." Ubbe simply states as he walks away.

"Don't take what he said too personally, you know how he can be." Hvitserk said confidently.

"But what if Lagertha thinks the same? Or King Harald. What if I made myself endless enemies by staying with Ivar." I ramble feeling panicked.  If even Ubbe sees me as one of his enemies what do the others think?

"You could come with us, to talk with Lagertha, to secure peace." he suggests but I quickly shake my head.

"Ivar might... favour me but I'm certain he would ry to kill me the second this war is over if I just leave." I whisper as we begin to walk so no one can hear us.

"I'll be on your side, and I'll do whatever I have to do to make sure you're not getting pulled into this war as well." he assures me as we walk through the small streets.

"With what do I even deserve you Hvitty?" I ask as I smile up him.

"Hey I'm still hoping that you're letting my little brother go and settle for the most handsome of Ragnars sons." he jokes making me laugh out loud. He can be such a cocky idiot.