Maddend Heart ~Ivar The Boneless~

Chapter 45// Silhouette

There are shadows in my dreams
Storms that send me out to reach
And you just wait on my defeat

So I built an army underneath
And now they got me while I sleep
And this worn-out frame will carry me

Don't go holding your breath
You know that I'm not done yet
There's still a fight in me left
Don't go shouting out loud
That you're claiming the crown
I'm down but not out

And the bittersweet of every new defeat
Is I'm stronger than before
I may be on my knees, but I still believe
These broken wings will soar

Untie my silhouette, it's all that is left of a broken heart
Leave all of my regrets to sink like shipwrecks
Through oceans dark

*I put most of the lyrics of the song on top here since I found them fitting perfectly into this Chapter :)*

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Hot tears trickle down my cheeks as I jolt up in my bed. Another dream. Its not suprising as I had them ever since we came here but they still scare me each and every time.

I haven't properly slept ever since we arrived and my appetite slowly decreased. The dreams were horrible and soul frightening, so much that I began scratching my body and pull on my hair to somehow release myself from the stress.

My days would be spend by sitting on the throne while I listened to peoples problems, only thinking of the nightmares that had me dieing each and every night.

Like always I dressed in a loose black dress and set my crown on top of my head. As I look in the mirror I jump back a little. Not only do I look as pale as a ghost while my cheekbones seem to stand out especially but the dried trails of Black coal under my eyes and down my face make it even sadder.

I command Cerberus to come with me as I walk into the great hall. The sun was barely up jet everything was already moving in here.

I sit on my throne as Cerberus comes to rest in front of me when Triska emerges with a tray of tea and some bread and other foods. I'm too occupied with my last dream to even care. I was drowning in it, every second of it I felt the way my lungs were going out of air.

"Have the herbs yesterday helped?" she asked with worry in her eyes. She has never seen anything quite like this and was clueless as to what she could do to help me.

I shake my head grabbing the cup of herbal tea guiding it to my lips. I force myself to drink to make her happy.

She puts the tray in front of me sighing as she comes to sit beside me. Cerberus lays his head on her lap as she pats his head.

"I really don't know what to do at this point." she confesses as she looks up to me. I know she hated that she was clueless but as this point I don't mind it. It hurts me more to see her like that than to feel it myself.

I look for a meaning in each dream, so much that it is all I think about. Sometimes they are scenarios of my past, sometimes they are visions I can't quite name.

We sit in silence for a moment deep in our thoughts when Aren rushes through the big doors.

"Two ravens came!" he shouts as he runs towards us breathless.