the sun - charlie gillespie

nine

there is something in the way charlie laughs that reminds me of my better self. there is something pure in the way he's struggle to do what is right, it's an honesty, right? he has the kind of creative brain that brings such magic and interest to life, one that enjoys the sparking of ideas. his written music is amazing.

charlie and i sat on the bed. he held the guitar in his hand, with sheet music covering most of the bed. i had a pencil behind my ear trying to notate what bits i needed to remember. we've been practice for almost three hours. there was an hour until the showcase.

"mia, could i hear you sing it again?" charlie begged with his pick in his mouth, my primary instrument was the keys, but since we were doing a duet, i had to sing. along with charlie's guitar. the piano was only here today for support.

i took the pick out of his mouth and he pushed his hair behind his ear.

"yeah sure. should i start from the beginning?" i confirmed and he nodded. i first watched him fiddle with the strings of the guitar, playing the intro. i was mesmerised. i couldn't find my voice. i felt my cheeks flushed hot, and my stomach was heavy.my heart pounded in my throat, threatening to break out.

why was i scared to sing?

his eyes wandered around my room. but mine stayed locked on him. he sung his verse and it was time for me to sing the pre-chorus. i started to sing and my hand was shaking. i quickly tightened it into a fist, just so he wouldn't notice.

"please, understand that i was in pain too, that i didn't mean to hurt you." i sung and he instantly looked over at me. he strummed the guitar and i looked back down at the lyrics. they looked like they meant a lot to him.

"i've had all my firsts with you, and i'm not prepared for any lasts." i added and i finally had the courage to look him in the eyes. they were so...

it's actually indescribable.

"i still can't forget the past"

"and i can't forget the fact"

"that i still, love you." we sung together. we stopped there. there was some sort of silence

pin-drop silence...?

how is that remotely possible with my heart somersaulting and with him sitting dangerously close to me, his light brown hair whipping haphazardly in a way.

his cerulean eyes locking me in a trance with such intensity; looking away is unthinkable. his almond shaped eyes constrict as he smiled at me, unaware of the repercussions.

all i know is that I'm falling him you.

hard.

but then i remembered.

that song wasn't about me nor was it for me. it was for kristina and we are simply doing this to reduce our suspension. i was the one to break the eye contact. i looked over at the sheet music spread around the bed and i picked them all up.

"you hide a lot, don't you?"

i almost swallowed my gum, turning to take in the expression on my new friend's face. his gaze was steady, while my eyes were wide like an innocent child, he released a short sharp breath.