the sun - charlie gillespie

twenty three

charlie and i sat in the uber together as we rode the roads of canada. it was such a beautiful place. he held my hand. tight. i couldn't tell why though, i didn't feel any intimacy between us right now, i couldn't quite read him yet.

"charlie are you okay?" i asked him, giving him a small smile. his hand was a bit sweaty. he was gazing outside the window, watching the snow sit and melt on the window. it was pretty dark outside since it was getting a bit late.

"mhmm. why?" he confirmed and i rose our hands that were intertwined with eachother.

"y-you're kinda crushing my hand." i let him know and he immediately let go. i could see the apology painted all over his face.

"i'm so s-sorry" he began to apologise and i shushed him as soon as possible. he rubbed my hand that consisted of white painted almond shaped finger nails. i giggled a bit sheila he was touching my hand. the uber driver looked up at the rear view and shook her head.

she probably thought we were so childish.

i didn't care though.

"are you nervous?" i asked him, i hope he'd be honest.

"yeah, kinda." he justified, trailing away from his thoughts. i would have thought that owen and ella's parents would've known charlie already.

"how come?" i asked him.

"no reason. just normal nerves." he said and i looked him deeper in the eyes. i think he was lying to me. silence had filled the car, it was weird, i didn't know if it was because of our kiss. maybe he was overwhelmed with something. i didn't want to talk about it with the uber driver in the car, that's was until i noticed the driver had put her had wired headphones on. i think she noticed that we wanted some privacy.

charlie's hand pulled away from mine, he sat his elbow on the ledge of the car window, humming a song.

"charlie." i called his name and his eyes lit up.

"yeah." he gulped.

" i really hope nothing is awkward between us, b-because of the kiss." my words left a trail in my mind as those word left my mouth. the huge gap between us was closed between us because charlie moved a little closer and swung his arm around me.

"no, oh god no." he emphasised, i sighed out of relief. i thought i ruined the mood of something. but my conscience kept asking me : 'he was trying to change the subject, ask him again'.

"kissing you was life changing." he smiled, moving closer to me. he reached up and took a curl of my hair between his fingers. he was close enough that i could feel the warmth of his body, smell his soap and skin and hair.

"i feel like it wasn't enough though" he said, letting my hair slip through his fingers. i shook my head and rolled my eyes. i wasn't gonna let him kiss me again unless we find ways to solve his problems with kristina.

imagine if she caught us together. i wouldn't know what she'd do.

"but then again i could kiss you all day every day for the rest of my life and it still wouldn't be enough." he laughed and i felt the tension in the car go down a bit. charlie at heart was some sort of romanticist. we smiled at eachother.