the sun - charlie gillespie

thirty

trigger warning - drugs

"see you on friday's rehearsals, learn your lines or else!" miss taylor joked. the group just finished their first rehearsal of high school musical. meanwhile, i was sat down in the front row with my airpod in my left ear, trying to draw out my model for my canvas. watching them made me really happy, they were doing a great job too. i looked at the clock and saw it was almost 5'oclock, meaning it was nearly end of rehearsals. so i packed my stuff away in my back.

"guys that was amazing!" i congratulated owen and ella for performing 'bop to the top' for the first time on stage. i stood up from my chair and walked closed towards them. they were also walking towards me.

"why thank you, would have been a little better if you were actually in the show." owen rubbed in the fact that i wasn't in the show. so it resulted in me pushing him to the side as he tried to grab his duffle bag. just as owen was going to swing it at me i felt  hands sit ontop my waist and pulled me away from owen. i knew it was charlie, he flipped me around and we were face to face with eachother.

"woah, calm down now. you know damn well owen will have you flying across the other side of the room." charlie said to me and i couldn't help but smile. charlie and i were inches away from eachother, so we took advantage of the moment.

"hi." he said innocently with a smile, looking down at the girl he adored.

"hi." i smiled back up at him and pulled closer to me. at times like this, i think whatever we have was going in the right direction.

"why can't you be the gabriella to my troy." charlie asked cutely and i moved thin hair out of his face. the only reason as to why i didn't want to be gabriella was because of kristina, i wanted to stay out of her way. i also thought her and charlie would be great together but it's not looking so good anymore.yes, charlie was still playing troy along with kristina playing gabriella. but something was off between them when they were on stage. we continued to walk out of the theatre and into the school hallway, making our way out of the school.

"yeah, you'd be so good. plus we'd get to argue with eachother." ella said excitedly. i rolled my eyes, that was such an ella comment. he repeatedly left soft kisses on my cheek and jaw, making me smile even more and hold me closer. i felt this euphoria just spread across my whole body.

it was like nothing could ever ruin this moment.

"charlie." i heard a high pitched voice and all 6 of us turned around. the school hallway was empty since we were the last people to leave the rehearsal. charlie and i stepped away from eachother. i watched charlie's smile disappear.

it was kristina. come to think of it, i think some part of herself still loved him, but she can't escape the fact that he's was not enough for her. i mean we all i knew this was going to happen, she even said it to him. you see, if this was me, i would have acted in a calm manner, i wouldn't blame charlie for falling in love with another woman. i wouldn't be angry, either. i should be, but i wouldn't. i would just feel pain. a lot of pain.

we all stood there, looking at each other, saying nothing.
but it was the kind of nothing that meant everything. kristina's eyes landed on charlie and i's hands which were tangled together. in his eyes, there was no trace of what had happened between them and it looked like she could feel something break inside of her.

she looked at him, and she felt so sad, because the thought probably occurred to her: 'he will never look at you the same way again. she'll never be that girl again. the guy who comes running back every time you push him away, the guy who loves you anyway.' she just snickered. she couldn't even be mad at him, because this was who he was. this was who he'd
always been.