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Friday 9th November 2012

Remember remember, the 5th of November.

After Monday, everything took a turn for even worse.

On the night of the school drama, the boys pulled up to S12's block with bare man. They were already posted so things got messy very quickly.

I don't need to talk too much, you already know it was peak.

The only thing that bothers me is no-one can confirm that the correct people were touched, everyone was in Ballys. Although, the boys didn't care. As long as you were affiliated with S12 you were getting touched. I can't even count how many people got stabbed. I'm not gonna lie though, they brought it on themselves. Of all people they could come for they chose me? I'm nothing special but fam I'm tight with too many Rush Boyz for them to think they can touch me with no repercussions, that was a stupid mistake.

But anyways, now we've realised their main focus is the girls, we're all on smash. They figured out RB have a weak spot.... us. Guess those years of the olders hiding us have gone to waste.

We legit can't leave the house for anything. S called the school and cussed them for their shitty security and told them I'm not coming in until they can guarantee I'll be safe. Mr Jerry obviously didn't agree to that but I'm still not going to school. Shantae and Justine stopped going after they saw a car patrolling outside yesterday, while they were waiting for Aaron to pick them up. They ran back inside and called Aaron, who pulled up with 3 man and sent the girls home in a car with Tash, while the rest chased the car.

It's all mad to be honest.

All because I wouldn't sleep with someone?

And I hate that Reaps can always find where we are but we can never find him. You know why though? Felicia, flipping Felicia. She told them everything she knows about us. The times we go to places, what we usually do, everything. Even though we cut her off, it was too late.

So now we always have to be ready for beef, at any time. Brandon even let me keep the flick knife he gave me. Better safe than sorry.

Sigh.

Anyways, Dr Carter has agreed to do virtual counselling with me, so I had a session with her on Wednesday over the phone. It wasn't that bad to be honest, my control over anxiety is improving.

I laugh as I hear Rakai singing in the hallway.

"Let's just get back together! We should have never broke up! They're telling me that my heart won't BEAT AGAIN!"

A whole JLS you know!! Tears come out the corner of my eyes as I laugh hysterically. He's actually unique.

That's one advantage of being on smash, everyone's been staying at mine. Everyone meaning Rakai, Brandon, S, Justine and Shantae. They all told their parents they're keeping Danielle and I company while our Mum's away, so they don't seem to mind. We're basically family anyway. But anyways yeah, Aaron thought it would be easier to protect the girls in one place. Zanisha has to stay in her house though, her parents won't let her out of their sight. They literally pick her up and drop her home from school and don't let her go anywhere.

The boys have been sleeping in the guest room and living room, while the girls have been in my room. Slyly it's kinda fun. Rakai probably just came out the shower, he's always singing when he gets out! Him and Brandon decided to bunk today to keep us company.

I can't lie, he's actually got me in a JLS mood now. I turn on my speaker and start blasting my favourite song by them.

Everybody in love! Go' put your hands up!
Everybody in love! Go' put your hands up!