Craving him: The beginning of us

22- The so called drug that is called Blaine

Arielle

October,26,2020

Blaine called me he sounded drunk I couldn't leave him there. I wish I had the power to resist him but I don't. It always seems like im too weak too stay away.

I take an Uber to the party Blaine at. I know which one because he posted a few pictures of it on Instagram. I scrolled down through the pictures in the Uber, he was doing body shots off of a girl who was basically naked. I didn't understand why it bothered me so much. I mean we weren't together.

I made it there Blaine was making out with some girl in the corner of the room. I made my way over to him and yanked her off of him it was Violet. I didn't know what to feel in this moment. I felt betrayed and angry.

She yells "you fucking bitch". She points her finger at me as she walks in front of me. I'm so close to lose it on her. She doesn't know how bad I wanted to hit her.

"I'm the fucking bitch your here making out with Blaine while he's drunk or is it because you know he would never do it sober." I said to her she was getting angry but I knew sum part of her knee it was true.

She tackles me to the ground she pulls on my hair she says "Your just a whore and you know it. He calls you and you come running because your under his control" she yells in my face. I'm trying to control my anger but she doesn't make it easy.

I wasn't about to let her talk to me that way I punched her in her face. Her nose was running down like a waterfall. Power I didn't know I had. Everyone stopped what they were doing to stare at us.

"You don't get to talk to me like that. Yes when Blaine calls I come because I care about him we been friends since we were kids and that's never going to end".

Before I could hit her again Blaine wraps his hands around my hips and dragged me away kicking and screaming for him to let me go. The feelings of his warm hands is what calmed me down. He took me outside and into the garden.

He sat me on the bench his voice soft "why did you come here?" His voice is soft like a little baby. I couldn't tell if it was because he's drunk or because of me.

"I came here for you. You called me remember. Even if I'm mad at you, it's like I have to be there for you Blaine" I placed my hand on his shoulder. He looks down at it like he wants to take it off.

I took his hand he smiled "you shouldn't be here. If Francis finds out your here with me alone what is he going to say?"

"I'm going to tell him that you were drunk and you needed help. So I came to get you"

"I'm so sorry Elle" he starts to apologize "I don't understand how things got so messed up. I wish we could start over"

"Is Blaine Taylor actually feeling guilty about something he's done?. Never thought I would see that day" I joke.

A small smile lifts from his mouth then into a full smile. He laughs he finally looks up at me and put my  his hand to my face. I never thought I would feel it again. His hand is hot and sweaty from the party. I started to cry and he shuffled closer to me "please don't cry Elle".

"It's not that I just never thought I would feel you again. Old you would have given up by now and for the life of me I can't figure out why you haven't".