Craving him: The beginning of us

28- Birthday Fights

Arielle

December 11, 2020

It's my birthday also a Friday. I decided to stay home after all the drama. I have been avoiding everyone. I feel completely guilty about it and I want to hide in my room for eternity. I go outside with my brother it's been snowing for the pass few days and the city is covered in white.

He comes behind me and throws me into the snow. I pick up snow and throw it at him and we had a snow fight. It's been too long since we hung out together just as siblings. I laughed and snow went into my mouth I spit out and he came running "are you okay?" He was worried. Little did he know I had snow ball in my hand.

After, I went inside to finish work from school and finish my college application. It's already done and I have checked it a million times I don't know why I couldn't just send it. Maybe because I'm nervous about neither or not I'll get in. I close my eyes and sent it, I take a deep breath and remind myself "it's out of my control now."

Riley texts me, I was kind of surprised. I get why she kept her distance I lied to her and it wasn't fair. I missed my best friend more than anything and I could say I'll let go of Blaine but it would be a lie because I can't even if I wanted to.

R: I know I'm supposed to be mad but it's your birthday and we need to celebrate girls day.
A: text me when your outside :)

Now today has been the best birthday ever. I missed her so much we missed so much we usually hang out 10 times a day but now it's like we're enemies.

After I pick out my outfit a long jeans a cute crop top shirt. Sometimes I forget I got my belly pierced and I don't show it often. Even though I did it to piss off Blaine after Madeline. I don't know if I should let myself be happy today I caused so much destruction and it's all because of me. Maybe that's why I deserve to be happy even if it's for one day.

R: I'm pulling up.

I run outside into the car. She's wearing a dress in like below -0 weather. She's crazy but she looks so pretty.

I start "I know you don't agree about what I'm doing with Blaine, Riley. I myself don't know what's happening. It's like he makes me question myself every day. It's fun and exciting sometimes and the other times..." she stops me in the middle of my sentence.

"I get that you like him Elle I do, for some reason you can't explain. I can't stand there and see my best friend get hurt by a man who only cares about himself. This is Blaine where talking about."

"He's different now..." I claim. No matter what she's not going to be believe me. She hates him always has.

"The hell he is. He knows he can manipulate you Elle. You seen Blaine in high school he had girls crying over him all the time. He didn't not give a fuck about anyone's feelings especially yours remember when your mom died. You cried for months and what did he say ?"

"He told me that parents suck and that I would be better off without her."

"Exactly. As much as you want to believe he changed for you. It's apart of his game" I'm about to cry at the mention of my mom. She died a long time ago but the thought of her not being here brings me to tears every time.

She hugs me "what are we doing?" I asked. Trying to avoid any arguments that start with Talking about him any farther. Knowing her she would want to do something wild and crazy.

"We're going bowling Elle that's our thing on your birthday and since your moms not here I was hoping you would let me do it for you"  she touches the top my hand gently.