Craving him: The beginning of us

31- secrets

Arielle
December 14,2020

Blaine's hiding something I can tell, he won't look at me. I wonder what I could be?, was it something with Madeline?, were they still sleeping together? No, I can't let myself think that I'll go crazy.

Anyways I decide to go to school this week. It's been a crazy few days at the Taylor's. Blaine's father continues to hate my existence, he thinks I'm "taking him away from the life he wants" but he doesn't know Blaine the way I do.

Blaine knocks on my door as I am writing in a journal I got during the weekend I thought it would be better if I wrote down my feelings instead of keeping them in. "Are you ready?" He asked excited. I feel like I haven't been to school in weeks. Even though I went almost all the time and if I didn't my assignments where on my computer.

I was ready in my school girl outfit I stand in front of him and he stares longingly into my eyes. He grips my behind in his hands and I stand on my tippy toes and give him a kiss. Then I walked outside before I could get outside Elijah stopped me in the kitchen.

"Have a good day at school" I turned to walk away and he still held onto my arm and continued talking "I know you wonder what he's hiding from you but I'm here to tell you, you don't want to know, so don't try to find it out" he seems sincere but if it's that bad that even he's warning me, did I really want to know?.

What could really be happening in this house? And why is Blaine involved? Blaine walks in distracting me from my thoughts he wraps his arm around me and kisses me on the cheek "are you ready?" he's smiling like every things normal now. Which it isn't I don't know if he was threatening me or trying to help.

"Yes, I'm ready" I walk outside to his car. There's still snow everywhere even though it's sunny out. I get him his car he stares at me like he's waiting for me to ask a question. But if I ask I could never go back this is it so decide not to.

I turn up the radio and he immediately turns it down. He moves my face to look at him "Arielle I-" I stop him.

"My brother kicking me out was not your fault. Well kind of yes was your fault, but I know you didn't mean to, you never know when love is going to come and struck you down" he smiles.

Today he decided on the same flannel shirt but this time it was orange black and grey with black jeans. His hair was spikey like he just got out of the shower.  He looked and smelled amazing.

I jumped into his lap, he was taken my surprise "what caused this sudden action?"

"You don't know how many days I have waited for this moment. I used to dream of this when I was kid. It always seemed so out of reach..." I stop when the seat goes back. I start giggling and he starts kissing my neck.

He stops to say "your beautiful inside and out and you have the biggest heart I ever seen on a person. You make my life better by just being you" I start to blushing. For a moment it's quiet and we're starting into each other's eyes.

I get off and sit back in the passenger sit, I can tell he's thinking about something and it's bothering him. Why wouldn't he tell me? Is it really that bad? And if it is did I really want to know?

The rest of the way I decided to do a prank on Blaine while I was holding his hand I was going to let go just to see he's reaction. So while he was popping bopping his head to party in the USA I let go. He put his bottom lip over the top to make a baby sad face yet mad face, it's was adorable.