gravity ➳ s.m.

thirty-one

Becca's P.O.V.

"Hey Dad" I gulp and the man looks up.

But the man who looked up was not my father.

This man had looked like he had never bathed, his tie was in a knot, his chin was prickly, his hair wasn't gelled, his face was bloated, his eyes bulging red. But yet he still stares back at me in shock.

"Rebecca!?" he asks as if he was imagining me. Oh and he also definitely hasn't brushed his teeth. He stands up and attempts to give me a hug.

And now looking at him and seeing his face I want him to pull me into his arms, the way he used to, and just cry and I want him to stroke my hair and tell me "It'll be okay" and give me that little ounce of hope that everything isn't ruined.

But also as I look at his face I have flashes going through my head of him hurting this man and I whisper to myself. "Good"

I reject the hug and tell him to sit down. We stare at each other and the only source of noise in the room at all is heavy breathing. My toes curl just by his glare.

"GOD DAMMIT THIS IS HARD ENOUGH AS IT IS I DON'T NEED YOUR STARE!" I yell and pound my fist on his desk. He was astonished by my outburst and just looks down.

Silence takes over again and I remember why I'm even here. "Look..." I take a piece of paper and pen and scribble on a piece of paper a time and place.

"Be there or don't ever show your face around me or my family ever again!" I spit and storm out of the room. I run into my dad's assistant, Stacy in the hall.

"Hey Rebecca, how's the mom?" she asks with that perky tone as I walk done the hall. I turn around but continue to walk

"Oh go fuck yourself" I snarl at her and flip her off with both fingers.

She knows exactly how my mom is doing. I am certain this is her fault, she has been trying to get into his bed for years!

I get in the car and am quick to apologize.

"Sorry it took so long" I tell Matt.

"Yeah are you okay? You're smiling?" he asks with a small chuckle. Am I? Wow I didn't even know. I clear my throat and nod.

"Yeah, I am, everything's fine" I tell him but I was really telling myself.

Everything is fine; it's going to be fine.

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I grab Matt's hands and kiss him on the cheek. What is this sudden surge of happiness? That must not be enough because after that he kisses me on the lips. When I pull away I don't know what to say.

"Matt..." I trail off. I notice he hasn't opened his eyes.

"Matt why are your eyes closed?" I ask trying to ignore the previous events even though I know I can't.

"Because when I open my eyes it means it's over... I don't want this to be over" he says with a raspy tone rubbing circles into the back of my hands. My heart swells

"Matt..." I trail of again. I don't know what to say.....

"shh" he silences me. He leaves me there with a million thoughts going through my mind.

After he leaves I go inside and notice how silent the house is. Its only 6:00 p.m. they can't be in bed, we haven't ate. I walk up stairs and peek into my mom's and Seth's room and find nothing. Maybe they went out. I shrug and walk into the bathroom.

I check my face in the mirror and mess around with my hair for no particular reason but i see something from the corner of my eye.

My heart beat speeds up, my palms sweat, my throat goes dry.

"MOM!?"

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A/N :

This is the shortest chapter I have ever written

But it's also my THIRD update today

Okay i'm gonna leave you with that because i'm a bitch

Bye

p.s. next chapter is gonna be big ;)

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