gravity ➳ s.m.

sixteen

I wake up to Natalie's cat; Angela licking face. I sigh and move around on the floor, trying to get comfortable.

"You can't sleep either?" Natalie questions from up on the bed. I didn't even know she was awake. "Nope" I say standing to my feet and walking to the bed and sitting next to her.

"Why can't you sleep?" I ask her "I just can't stop thinking about this magcon thing" she says in whiny tone. Magcon? What? "What's Magcon?" I ask my eyebrows knitting my eyebrows together in confusion. "Uh... um Nothing, goodnight" she says obviously lying, throwing her blanket over her head.

"Natalieeee" I say stretching out her name in a warning tone, I uncover her.

"He didn't tell you?" she asks but whispers. "Who?" I ask "Shawn" she says with a gulp.

Of course it's about him, everything is, why can't we have a normal relationship? "What about him?" I ask knowing this can't be good.

"SotheboyskindabecamefamousonvineandYouTubebecauseofNash'svinewithhisLittlesister" she says really fast. Okay? Why wouldn't he tell me? I'm so happy for him of course, but why wouldn't he want to tell me? "And?" I ask knowing there has to be more.

"Some guy name Bart Bordelon saw them and the guys became friends with them and he thought since all these people wanted to meet them so... Bart talked with the boys about a meet and greet convention called Magcon. It's basically a group of teenage comedians and singers on vine coming together for this event and they will be touring parts of America" she says panting, basically begging for breath. She flinches excepting me to hit her or something.

Wait, there will be girls there basically all over Shawn and he would forget about me.

Like Cady Harran once said, I think my stomach is about to fall out of my butt ... I hate Regina I hate her. Okay that made no sense at all and stop quoting Mean girls.

God I'm his girlfriend for fucks sakes I shouldn't be having these thoughts. I'm getting lost in my thoughts again and no one will save me.

"Hey Bec, you're starting to scare me, you haven't talked in like five minutes" she says interrupting my thoughts but I'm thankful for it. I clear my throat preparing to speak.

"Who all is going?" I ask about to tear up "Matt, Jack, Cam, Taylor, Carter, Jacob, Aaron, Nash, Shawn, Jack, Hayes, and Mahogany." It really sucks because I have become so close to these people in the last few weeks.

"There are more, but those are the mains" she says, of course I'm happy but I don't want him to leave but I know he has to.

I remember how he said his dream was to sing but he was going to stick with the boys, this must be what he was referring to.

I should have told him to live his dream, so I guess I brought this upon myself. It's too late "I'm so sorry" Natalie says trying to comfort me

"What time is it?" I ask breaking the silence "10:26 a.m." she answers. "Oh I'm going to get dressed" I say standing up with my bag and walking to the bathroom.

I put on a casual lazy day outfit some black leggings and a red flannel along with my black vans. I then apply a few layer of mascara and leave my hair natural.

I walk back into Natalie's room and find her dancing to Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield.

Oh my, this is our routine. I run over next to her dancing along. We then sing along to the chorus.

"Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins