gravity ➳ s.m.

twenty-one

Becca's P.O.V.

I scrunch my eyes for a moment, is he being serious right now?

"Thanks" I respond through my teeth.

"So hey, do you want to borrow my flannel?" He asks randomly trying to lighten the mood.

He helps me up from the uncomfortable beach sand. "Why?" I ask. He doesn't answer he just points to my shirt. I look down at my plain wet white shirt

"Wha-Holy shit!! Shawn how long have you known about this?" I ask referring to how see through the white shirt is and you can see my black lace bra. "Almost all day" he says with a smirk. I hit him in the arm. I can feel my cheeks heat up, I am so embarrassed.

"Okay so it's around 10:00 p.m. do you want me to get you home?" he asks "No" I answer harshly "Bec, you're going to have to go home sometime, do you want me to come?"

"Yeah, I know Shawn and no I have to do this by myself" I say keeping my head held high. "Okay"

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"Okay this is it "he says hoping out of the car. "Ughh" I complain "So school, are you going tomorrow?" he asks. I completely forgot about school.

"Yeah, I can't hide from my problems forever" I say taking a breath I just need to sleep this off. He nods in settlement. "Thanks, for this weekend"

"It was my pleasure" he says looking into my eyes. "Okay well don't just stand there, give me my goodnight kiss"

I command being straight forward, breaking the silence. He blushes and pecks me on the lips, short but nice.

"Good night" I say walking up my driveway "Night" he says and gets in his car and I watch as he drives away. Here goes nothing. I think to myself and reach for the knob and turn it walking inside.

I walk in and tip toe through the dark house. But get stopped by a light switch flicking on causing the room to light up. Busted.

I look over to the light switch to find Seth standing their. I sigh in relief. "God, Booger!" I scream under my breathe.

"Hey Becca, can I talk to you?" he asks. Him talk to me? "Seth we have sch-"I begin

"Please" he begs cutting me off "Fine" I sigh and walk off to the counter and sit on top of it. I pat the open spot for him to come and sit next to me.

"So what's up?" I ask out of curiosity "It's j-just..." he stutters. He is really scaring me ; I've never seen him so nervous.

"I don't want you to leave again" he admits and sighs

"loo-"I start "No you look, I don't know what happened between you and mom but you can't just leave everytime something goes wrong " he cuts me off.

"We need you around here, I need you around here" he corrects with tears in his eyes.

I pull him into a hug; I haven't seen him so sad before. "Shh" I comfort him as he cries into my shoulder. Do they really need me? I always feel so useless.

"Hey, hey look at me" I say lifting his face up so his eyes will meet mine.

"It's going to be okay, I'm not leaving again" I promise I say and he wipes away his tears and hops off the counter and up the stairs.

"Hey bec" he says and turns around "Hmm?" I ask and hop off the counter "Thanks" he says. He really just thanked me

"Anytime little brother, are mom and dad asleep?" I ask "Yea but dad's on the couch , they have been fighting all weekend" he says mumbling the last part hoping I wouldn't hear I fake smile and wave him off and he walks off to his room .

I move from the kitchen to the living room and surly enough my dad is laying their on the couch. Ew he looks like he hasn't shaved in weeks.

"Night" I mumble knowing he won't hear and I walk up the steps to my mom's room to check on her.

She is laying their sound asleep with puffiness around her eyes and make up spreaded down her face. You can tell she has been crying. I remember what Seth said moments ago

"They have been fighting all weekend" Great and it's because of me. I hear thunder come from outside her window. Well that was dramatic.

I remember when I was little and my dad was gone I would run into my mom's room when she would already be sleeping I would lay in bed and cuddle with her and she would wrap her arms around me in her sleep probably me taking the place of my dad .

But anyways we would lay there and cuddle and she made me feel safe. I could always tell she was unhappy I just didn't know how to process it.

I walk over to my mom and lay in the empty space on her bed next to her even though I'm 'mad' at her still. And surely enough she wrapped her arms around me, and with that I slowly drifted off to sleep.
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