gravity ➳ s.m.

twelve

Becca’s P.O.V.

I played sick for three whole days. I haven’t heard a word from anyone and honestly I’m okay with that, I’m happy if they’re happy.

I have been in my room the whole time my brother even brings me food. My parents are at work for the rest of the day and Seth is at a friend’s as usual.

I sit at home trying to play my piano but I suddenly get a call. I look at the screen for the name, ‘Jack G’ is written across it. Ignore.

Then it rings again and again and it doesn’t stop. I start to get worried. Is this about Natalie? I decide to answer.

“Hello” I say “Becca I tried to call you so many times” he speaks really fast “Oh really? I haven’t noticed” I say irritated.

“Cut the sarcasm, Where are you?” he asks. “At home…” I answer extremely confused about where he is going with this.

“Why haven’t you been at school?” he asks,

“Okay, is there a point to this? or can I go?” I just cut the shit and ask, clearly cranky.

“Just answer the question.” he demands

“*cough cough* I’m sick” I answer.

“What are we quoting ‘Mean Girls’ now?” he asks in a girly voice.

I’m done with this conversation.

“BOO you whore” I say before hanging up. As soon as I put my phone down it rings again. Ignore. Then it rings again.

“GOD WHAT DO YOU WANT!?!” I shout into the phone

“Are you with Shawn?” he asks.

“No? Why?” I ask confused.

“Because you both have been missing school, not answering your phone, ignoring everyone and Shawn’s mom said he went to a friend’s house for a few days, and I have called all of the ones I can think of and they all said they haven’t talked to him” he panics. I am speechless.

“If I find anything out I will make sure to call you” is all I could think to say, I began assuring him he is okay but I’m just as worried as he is.

“Okay bye” he says.

“Bye” I say back.

What do I do? This is my fault. Everything. I decide to lie down and think things out. 

*

I twist and turn and can't seem to be able to sleep with this thought of shawn being in trouble in the back of my head, so I sit up and grab my laptop.

My door then flies open. My eyes instantly look into the pair I never thought I’d see again. Shawn. He is different, he isn’t smiling, and his eyes aren’t glowing.  

He is a mess, but so am I. His hair is all over the place, he has dirt on his face and clothes. He looks like he hasn’t showered in weeks and he looks like he has been crying.

“Shawn!?” I finally speak up,

“Where have you been? What have you been doing? Why are you here?” I have so many questions I don’t even know where to start. He walks over to my chair and sits there with his head in his hands.

“Shawn talk to me” I beg.

“Why?” he whispers. Why what?

“Why did you leave?” he says a bit louder looking me in the eyes. I can’t answer that question.

“Shawn…” He stands up and I decide since I don’t know what all to say, to just say it all,

“I’m sorry but this isn’t real, stuff like this doesn’t happen to me. And what happened in the hall, you don’t deserve that. I don’t deserve you. This isn’t fair to you. I don’t want you to get hurt, I want you to move on without me with someone else, Ashley even. I want to see you happy and you can’t be that with me.” I admit, tears now flooding from my eyes

“Becca please don’t” he begs, the tears in  his eyes are enough to kill me. I shake my head slowly,

“this is over” I say forcing the words out.

“Becca. Please don’t let people get in your head. Becca…tell me.” he pleads as he sits on the bed next to me.

“Tell me what made you think that you aren’t good enough for me and why you can’t do this. This can't be over... it barely started" he intertwines his fingers with mine, making me feel safe.

Shawn’s P.O.V.

“Last year, I had a boyfriend and he made me feel special and one night he made a move on me and I refused. He started saying stuff” she chuckles.

Why is she laughing?

“I liked him so much, and then he said the worst stuff to me and everyone else started to aswell. This was when Ashley and I were friends-“ I interrupt her thrown off guard

 “Wait… you and Ashley were friends?” I can’t even wrap my mind around the idea of that.

“Yeah but then I started getting all depressed about everything and I lost all my friends. Except for Natalie, she stayed.”

Every word she says breaks my heart, learning about what she got put threw.

“I’m sorry” is the only thing I can think to say. She cries into my shoulder again.

“After that he got transferred. His name is Logan” she speaks softly. She tries to move but I don’t let her.

“Don’t let go… not yet” I whisper.

“Shawn, I-I loved him…” she says removing herself from my body.

"He never loved me back, I thought he was my forever but he just wanted sex. I was a joke to him and everyone else in the school."

"You remind me alot of him and I just I-I" I pull her back into my arms and she falls to the floor breaking down. Tears flood my eyes.

I walked over and stood right in front of her, I looked into her eyes and I caressed her tear stained cheeks. I leaned in to hug her as gentle as possible because I knew she was still hurting. I gaze into her big hazel eyes.

"I'm not him and I never will be, let me prove that to you"

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A/N:  

Heyyyyyyyy

so you found out about Becca's troubled past.......

and yeah idk what to say 

guys I feel as if everyone hates my
story bc it's dramatic af 

anyways,

Bye loves !!!

-xoxoxoxo lyssssaaaa