The Nerds Secret

Chap 28: mess right now

1 week later

It's been a week and I haven't gone to school or even gone home. I haven't been aloud to see her all week but her family has and they always came out crying as I got texts from my parents asking were I was and if I was okay and I told them. They told me I had to go to school today but I could go back to the hospital after which I wasn't happy about. Everyone was looking at me and giving me sympathy but I didn't need it. I wanted this day to just hurry up so I can go see her. I was in English just sitting in class and tapping my pen on the desk while the other students did work and the teacher walked up to me.

"Mr.phillips I'm going to have to ask you do get some work done" he asked as I just looked at him.

"No" I replied.

"I'm not going to ask you again do your work or get a detention" he said as I stood up so I was looking down at him since I was taller.

"How can I do work when my f*cking girlfriend is in a coma and on the verge of death I mean I can't think straight so maybe you should leave me the f*ck alone I didn't want to come to school and I sure as hell don't need to deal with your crap" I said as I walked out of the room and slammed the door. I kept walking till I got outside and I found a big oak tree which I sat under and pulled out the necklace as I looked at it and it brought tears in my eyes as the chain fell threw my fingers and I sniffed before I heard someone coming and I put it back in my pocket and looked to see Wyatt.

"Hey you okay?" He asked as he took a seat next to me.

"No what about you?" I asked as he shook his head.

"No to be honest I don't think any of us are okay" he replied as I nodded.

"Have you seen her yet?" He asked as I shook my head.

"They are only letting family at the moment" I replied as he nodded. We had a little conversation before someone came running to us and they looked at us.

"Ryder your sister is in hospital" the person yelled as I got up and my heart started racing as I ran off to my car I don't care that I still had school i need to see my sister. I hopped in my car and started it before driving off to the hospital. I was careful of the cops and I parked my car before I hopped out and ran inside to see my family as walked up to them and mom was crying as dad looked at me.

"You have school" he said as mom looked up to see me.

"I don't give a f*ck my sister is in hospital" I replied.

"Don't swear and we have to wait for an answer she had a cancer attack" dad said as I nodded and we sat down. I looked over to see Eleanor's parents asleep in the chairs as I felt bad and I looked to see my parents worried as we waited. I watched as people walked past the door and some walked in to talk to other people as we waited anxiously hopping she was going to make it.

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It's been about 2 hours and a doctor walked in and over to us as we stood up. He approached us and I looked at him waiting for him to speak.

"You are family of Sally phillips?" He asked as we nodded and he took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry but Sally didn't make it though the operation the cancer won this battle we tried everything" he said as my heart broke my little sister my own flesh and blood was gone she was taken away from me. She would never get to have her first boyfriend or find out what love is. She would never get to see the world or taste alcohol.

"YOU DIDNT TRY HARD ENOUGH" I yelled which caused everyone to look at me but I didn't care I had tears in my eyes which were falling down my face.

"I know your angry and it's completely normal how you are feeling but you can go say your goodbyes" he said as he told us what room she was in and I let mom and dad see her first as I waited outside her room and I looked in the window to see my parents crying as more tears fell down my face. Soon they walked out and turned to give me a hug before I pulled away and walked into the room to see her little lifeless body on the bed as I sat down next to it and grabbed her hand.

"Hey little one I miss you so much you have no idea..... Your too young to leave this world you still had so much to do and see. You meant the world to me and you were always there to make me smile even when I was grumpy and I loved how I always sung you bedtime songs. You were such a beautiful little girl and it wasn't your time to leave not yet. Mom and dad are a wreck and so am I mom has been crying non stop and I'm just a mess right now with you gone and Eleanor in a coma I don't know what to do. I guess your in a better place now and you'll always be in my heart I love you so much little sis I miss you" I said as I had tears falling down my face and I kissed her little forehead and I whipped the tears away. I began to walk out of the room as I turned around to look at her one more time before I walked out of the room and I walked to my car before I hopped in and drove off to a pub. Once I got there I hopped out and walked inside and up to the bar and a man came up to me.

"Can I help you?" He asked as I nodded.

"Can i get the strongest alcohol you have?" I asked as he nodded.

"Having a bad day?" He asked as he got it and popped off the lid.

"Yeah" I replied as he handed to me and I thanked him before I began to drink the burning liquid. I kept drinking and drinking and drinking as memories of my sister and I and of Eleanor and I played in my head as tears fell but I just kept drinking. I had girls come up to me and try and get in my pants but I just told them to f*ck off because I wasn't interested.

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Once I was done I payed the man and walked out I was drunk there was no doubt it. I asked one of my friends to pick up my car since I couldn't drive. I was currently in the car with Michael who was driving me home. I didn't talk to him I just looked out the window.

"Here have this it will help you" he said as he handed me a smoke and I grabbed it before the memory of Eleanor came in my head of when I smoked in class and she hated it. I sighed at the memory and took the cigarette and placed it between my teeth as I lit it and I began to smoke the cigarette. I felt bad that I was doing it but it was the only way to get rid of stress. Soon I finished the cigarette and we pulled up at my house as I hopped out and thanked him before walking inside and I walked into Sally's room and sat on her bed as I looked around and I just broke down why did she have to leave me I can't loose Eleanor as well.