Diary (Vkook, Old Version)

February 7th, 2015

Dear Diary,
It was 9 am, when I was woken up by the doorbell. Seemed like someone couldn't wait to see me, the way they kept ringing the doorbell nonstop. I got up, still sleepy and went to the door. As soon as I had opened it, I felt someone hugging me. I looked down, to see Hana holding onto me. I quickly pushed her away and asked her why she was here. She said, she just wanted to see me. I rolled my eyes, but couldn't do anything; I did say I was gonna see her at least once a day. I sighed and told her that I just needed to get ready. I told her to sit on the sofa and wait for me, before going back to my room. I changed into black jeans and a red t-shirt, combed my messy hair and washed my hair. I then went back to Hana, raising an eyebrow, when she grinned at me. But I didn't ask why she was grinning, it was probably a stupid reason anyway. So I asked her what she wanted to do, since I had no idea what to do. She pulled out sunglasses, confusing me. She smirked, saying she wants to spy on Taehyung. I raised both of my eyebrows, asking her why she wanted to do that, but she just shrugged. Her answer was "Just for fun". But it was also interesting for me, to know what Taehyung was doing the whole day, so I took the sunglasses, nodding. I put on my red sneakers, a jacket and a scarf, before heading out with Hana. I put on the sunglasses, as soon as we arrived at Taehyung's apartment. We hid behind a huge tree, it was kind of fun to hide like that.
It took thirty freaking minutes, until Taehyung finally left the house. He looked pretty good... Ah, I pulled up the scarf, just in case he was gonna see me while passing by. We followed him, to wherever he was going, acting like we didn't know him, whenever he turned around. After fifteen minutes, we arrived at a cafe, sat at the table next to Taehyung. We didn't take off any of our clothes, so he won't recognize us,even though it was pretty warm in there. I ordered a cold coke, so it wouldn't get too warm. Hana didn't order anything and I didn't see Taehyung ordering anything either. Weird, why would he go into a cafe without ordering anything. Yeah, that's what I thought. About ten minutes later, when I finally got my coke, I saw a pretty woman enter the shop. At first I didn't care, but only until she sat down in front of Taehyung. I raised an eyebrow, who was that? Seemed like Hana just noticed her as well, because she started looking confused. Hearing that woman call Taehyung "Oppa" made me choke on the sip of coke I had taken. I started coughing so much, that everyone was looking at me. Great. I had to apologize but Taehyung knows my voice, so I just bowed slightly, looking at the other people. You could hear a 'Pft' sound, coming from Taehyung. I quickly turned around to him, seeing him holding back a laugh. I pouted, looking back at Hana, who was now giving me a What-the-hell-do-you-think-you're-doing-look. I gave her an apologizing look and she just sighed loudly. I then started concentrating on the conversation between Taehyung and the unknown female. But even though they were next to us, they weren't really close, so I couldn't understand everything they said, only a few words, like, "I missed you", "Where have you been?", "Me too" And that's all. I looked at Hana, with a questioning look but she just shook her head, so I sighed. I hope he'll tell me soon enough, by himself.
After the still un-known woman and Taehyung had talked for forty-five minutes and I had also finished my coke, they left the cafe, with Hana and me following them. Taehyung and the woman walked into a huge mansion, so I stopped walking, Hana bumping into my back. She started cursing, asking why I had stopped walking. I gulped, that mansion looked familiar to me. But it wasn't a good feeling, no, the opposite, it was a very very bad feeling. I couldn't seem to remember, though, and my head started hurting from trying to remember, so I just let it go. Soon after Hana had stopped cursing, I sat down on a bench near the mansion. My head started hurting even more, at the sight of the familiar neighbourhood, which I couldn't seem to remember, either. I held my head, Hana raised an eyebrow at me, asking what was wrong, but I didn't answer her. I quickly got up, walking away. Hana followed me, wouldn't stop asking what was wrong. But I didn't answer her at all, I just wanted to go home, so I did. It was only 11:30 am, when I closed the door to my house, after Hana and I had walked in. I plopped myself down on the sofa, sighed really loudly. Hana looked really worried, asked if I wanted a glass of water, but I didn't want one. I quickly took off my jacket, scarf and sunglasses, before taking out my phone. I texted Taehyung, asking if we can meet up, even though I knew he was at that woman's place at that time. I waited for a text back desperately, for twenty minutes. I had nearly fallen asleep, when my phone buzzed, waking me up. I quickly looked who it was and Taehyung. I flashed a smile, opening the message. And even though I had expected this answer, I was still disappointed. He said he didn't have time today, and asked if we could meet up tomorrow instead. I sighed, before replying "Sure". I kind of forgot that Hana was there, until she asked why I was acting this way. I sat up, looking at her, waving it off, saying it was nothing. Her response was just her, raising her left eyebrow, didn't say anything else, which was good. I was hungry, so I asked Hana if we could go to McDonalds and she agreed. I put my jacket back on, no scarf and no sunglasses this time. I grabbed my keys and we headed out once again. It took us about thirty minutes to get to the closest McDonalds, it was very warm in there. We sat down and ordered food, which we then ate, before going back home. At home, I sat back down on the comfortable soft sofa. Hana went off somewhere, I didn't know where, until she came back downstairs, my most precious book in her hands. Her mouth and eyes were wide open, she looked like she wanted to say something, but couldn't. I quickly pulled my diary out of her hands, asking if she had read it. She nodded, tearing up. I cleared my throat, before looking down. She looked hurt, now knowing about my feelings for Taehyung. But all she could bring out was, "So you're gay?" and I hate to say this, but I felt kind of sorry. I nodded, and she quickly ran out of my house. Well, I told her I don't like her, so why is she so hurt now? I really don't understand girls. They're so complicated.
Then, I was all alone. No Taehyung, no Hana. And it was only two pm, when I let myself fall on my bed, hiding under the blanket. I took out my phone and texted Jimin, asking if we could hang out. But I didn't get any answer at all, which is weird, because Jimin usually replies within seconds. Well, whatever, I just laid there on my bed, phone in my bed, until I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already eight pm. I got up, feeling horrible. All I wanted to do was cry and sleep, yes. So I'm gonna do that now, Good night diary,
Jungkook