Diary (Vkook, Old Version)

Taehyung's P.O.V

As soon as Jimin finished reading, I gulped. Did I really do that? All those sweet things my best friend had described? "Was I really this clingy to her?" I asked, after hesitating. Jimin replied by nodding. "Yes." He then said, making me widen my eyes in disbelief. I never noticed what I'd done and how much I actually hurt Jungkook. Wait a minute. I actually hurt my best friend. Suddenly, the feeling of tears on my cheeks faded, so I touched my cheeks, only to realize, I had stopped crying. Not because I calmed down, no, but because there were just no tears left for me. I felt completely empty from that moment on. All I could feel was the regret in my heart and a lot of What-If's made their way to my head.

What if I hadn't agreed to dating her?

What if I hadn't hurt Jungkook?

What if I had just told him the truth?

I decided that those questions were useless now, shaking my head, to push them aside. I looked at the table, my thumbs fighting with each other. What should I do? What can I do? Ah, right. Nothing. I could do nothing at all, which made me feel even worse. But the worst thing was, that Jungkook wasn't the only one. Right, I loved him too. Ah, I still love him. I touched my head, which was starting to hurt. I wish I could tell him my feelings. And the only reason why I dated that person was, to push aside my feelings for Jungkook. I had a lot of reasons for that.

1. I was convinced Jungkook was straight, not gay.

2. I felt it was just too quick to already be in love with him so much.

3. I didn't want him to be grossed out, seeing as I thought he wasn't gay.

Etc.

But I pushed all those thoughts aside, when Jimin finally read on.