Snowbarry One Shots

I'll Stand By You

POV CAITLIN:

I thought that the worst day of my entire existence had been the day when the parcicle accelerator exploded, because that phenomenon took the man I loved out of my life. But when we found out that he was alive, a huge hope arose within me, as the universe had given me a second hope of being happy with Ronnie.

I had him again with me and when everything seemed to be going beautifully for us, especially after we got married at the door of STAR Labs, our little bubble of happiness had to explode. At this moment we were saying goodbye to Barry, as he was going to enter the wormhole to save his mother, but not everything went as planned and Barry ended up returning without doing what he intended.

But as soon as we cut off the internal generators to shut the wormhole down, a singularity formed. After Barry stabilized the singularity, but Ronnie and Martin had to merged so they could separate in the eye of the singularity.

- Don't even think about it, it's very dangerous, Ronnie.- I said as soon as I looked at him.

- Cait, we have to try it - Ronnie said kissing me afterwards and went to Martin.

Ronnie and Martin merged and flew toward the singularity to aid Barry. As the singularity began to collapse in on itself, the two separated and Ronnie was lost in the process. As soon as I saw Barry "falling" from the sky, I went straight to him, as Ronnie might be needing my help, but as soon as I got to their edge, I just saw Barry and Martin.

"Ronnie?" I asked looking around, but there was still no sign of him and as soon as I looked at Barry again, I knew what had happened.

"Sorry," said Barry as he opened his arms to hug me.

I don't believe that I got him back a little while ago and I'm going to have to get used to living without him again. But why doesn't this universe like to see me happy ?! Do I only know how to suffer?!

- Cait, I tried ...

- Don't say anything please. I know it's not your fault.

- He died like a hero, Caitlin.- said Martin coming to our side, accompanied by Cisco, Joe and Iris.

- I didn't want him to be a hero, I wanted him to be alive.

- Maybe you better go home to rest, - said Joe.

"I'll take you," said Barry, preparing to pick me up.

- No need, I have my car in the laboratory parking lot.

- It wasn't a question, Caitlin. It was a statement, I will not let you drive in this state. I will take you home.

- I'll call you soon.- said Cisco and I went to hug him.

Barry picked me up and in a matter of seconds we were already at my door. He set me down on the floor and I went to my suitcase to take the keys out of the house and as soon as I found them, I turned back to Barry to thank him for coming to bring me home.

- Sorry again. If it weren't my fault, Ronnie would be here with you right now,

- Barry, I already told you that you were not to blame for what happened.

- You know if you need anything, you can call me right?

- Yes I know. And thank you, again. - I said entering the house.

I don't even know how I'm going to feel right now. My heart and my head are racing. On the one hand I feel proud because he sacrificed his life to save the lives of Barry and the rest of the people in this city, but on the other hand I feel so sad and angry, because the universe has given me a second chance with him, and then take me out after a few weeks.

- Why did you have to be a hero ?! Right now that we were married and we were going to start building a life and family together ...- I said while looking at my wedding ring.

I didn't feel like doing anything, so after eating something, I went to my room and just fell asleep, washed in tears. In the morning I woke up in a bad mood ... I went to the medication booth, which is in my bathroom, but I had nothing to please, so I dressed up quickly and went to the pharmacy.

When it was my turn, I described what I felt to the girl who was at the counter and instead of giving me some medication, she gave me a pregnancy test. Was it possible that I was pregnant ?! After paying for the test, I quickly went home and went into the bathroom. Before taking the test I was reading the instructions to find out how this worked.

Five minutes after taking the test, I went to see the result and I couldn't believe what I was seeing. As soon as I saw the result, the first thing I did, I mean after freaking out a bit, was to call the first person who came to my mind.

- Remember that you tould me yesterday that if I needed something to call you. Well, I need to talk to someone.

"Five minutes and I'm there," said Barry, hanging up the call.

Five minutes after I hung up with Barry, heard the doorbell ring and when I went to open the door, here he was with two coffees and a box of sweets.

- I brought our breakfast, - said Barry entering my house, but as soon as he opened the box of sweets, I was in a bad mood and had to go to the bathroom to throw up.- Are you okay?

- I am, I'm just a little sick. But thanks for coming.

- Of course I came. I told you you could count on me whenever you need to. How are you?

- I honestly have no idea. I have a whirlwind of feelings inside!

- Hmm, but why do I have the feeling that something else is going on? Do you want to tell me?

- I want! That's why I called you here today. This morning I was really in a bad mood, so I went to the pharmacy to buy some pills that would calm my bad mood, but I left with something I never thought would happen.

- What? What's up? You're making me worried.

- I think it is easier to show you.- I said going to the bathroom and I took my pregnancy test, already very clean and handed it to Barry.

"What do these lines all mean?" Asked Barry as he looked at the pregnancy test.

- Barry, I'm pregnant.

- Pregnant? But that's great news, "said Barry smiling and came to hug me." You must be very happy for the news.

- And I am, but I can't help thinking that Ronnie will not be able to help me with the pregnancy, nor will he have the opportunity to see his son or daughter grow up. Barry how am I supposed to do this without his help?

- You will have our help. Caitlin we will be here to support you in all stages of pregnancy. I know it's not the same, but I will always be here to help you.

It won't be easy to do this process without Ronnie's help, but it is comforting to know that I can always count on the help of Barry and all my friends. And Ronnie, my love, I promise you that as soon as our son or daughter is born, that I will tell him or her all about you. I'll tell the kid about the two times you saved this city and how happy you made me.