Monasterio Series #5: Risks and Chances

Kabanata 23

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Kabanata 23

Downfall

It really feels different when you're kissing the one you have feelings for. Ilang beses ng nangyayari ang bagay na ito sa pagitan namin ni Alas pero ngayon ko lang naranasan maramdaman ang tila ba nakalutang sa alapaap.

I was also ecstatic the very first moment Kris landed his lips on mine but I must say it's nothing compared to what I'm feeling when it comes to Alas. Ecstatic is understatement.

He's kissing me like I am his air and he couldn't breathe.

He gently pushed me against the bed as he moved on top of me. My wet hair were spreading all over the white sheets as he's sucking my tongue. A soft moan suddenly escaped my throat when he even played with it. Bumaba ang halik niya leeg ko habang ang mga kamay ko ay unti-unti ng gumagapang sa bewang niya.

I tilted my head to give him more access to my neck. I can feel his wet kisses there as I'm loving the feeling of chills down my spine.

My muscles are melting under his touch, my blood tingling with the way my feet rub against his calf. My thoughts are starting to become hazy. I'm definitely losing all my control here.

"Make me stop." he whispered all of a sudden, waking me up from the spell.

"S-Stop..."

His lips halted from kissing my neck. He stayed on that position, his warm breathing were giving me shiver. Isang buntong hininga ang pinakawalan niya bago bahagyang itinuon ang mga kamay sa magkabilang gilid ko at tumititig sa akin.

"Would you still make me stop even if I didn't ask you to?" he asked.

I don't know. Maybe I won't. I was too carried away to even stop you. But good thing you asked it first when I'm already losing my control. Kung nagpatuloy tayo at may nangyari sa atin, mas lalalim lang ang magiging kuneksyon natin. Kapag may nangyari sa atin, mahihirapan akong bumitaw sa'yo. Maaari mong isipin na may nararamdaman na rin ako sa'yo.

"Yes," I lied.

His brow lifted up. "When? When I'm about to thrust inside you?"

Nanglaki ang mga mata ko at mahina siyang tinampal. "You really have a vulgar mouth!"

"I'm just telling the truth. That's what going to happen next if I didn't ask you to stop me. Damn, those neck is going to be the death of me."

Tuluyan na siyang umalis mula sa pagkakadagan sa ibabaw ko saka humiga sa aking tabi. I slightly glanced at him. He's staring at the white ceiling, face serious as if he's suddenly inside a deep thoughts.

Bumuntong hininga ako saka itinuon na rin ang atensyon sa kisame. Inayos ko ang kwelyo ng roba ko na bahagya ng nalaglag mula sa aking balikat. Ramdam ko pa rin ang mga labi niya sa leeg ko na tila ba nakamarka na ito.

"Ania..." tawag niya sa akin, mahinahon ang boses.

"Hmm?"

"Are you already falling for me, too?"

I was caught of guard by his question and serious tone. Nanatili akong nakatitig sa kisame, hindi siya tinitingnan at hindi nagpapahalatang nagulat. I didn't expect that he'd dare to throw that question on me.

Bakit niya naitanong?

"No." Iyon lang ang naging sagot ko sa kaniya.

I had to lie for the sake of me. Hangga't walang kasiguraduhan, hindi mo ako mapapaamin, Alas.

"Then why did you kiss me back?"

"Does it matter? We have already kissed before. Wala ng bago roon."

Mapang-asar siyang natawa. "Uh-huh. Does making out with me and almost have sex are just nothing for you?"

"Alas," I laughed, trying to sound genuine. "What do you want to hear from me? That I have feelings for you too just because we make out? What are we, highschools?"

"Tss. Does it mean you're willing to give it to me? Kahit na wala kang nararamdaman sa akin?"

Nagkibit balikat ako. Hangga't maaari ay sinusubukan kong magmukhang walang pakielam sa bawat nangyayari sa amin. I tried to be as hard as a stone and as cold as an ice just to protect myself from a possible heart break.

Because it seems to me that Rainbow Alas Trajano will be my downfall.

"Maybe." was all I can say.

"Maybe my fucking ass. You didn't give yourself to Kris even if you loved him."

There you have it, asshat. The answer to your first question. You just have to learn how to read between the lines.

"Why are we talk about this anyway?" kunyari ay naiinis na sabi ko at nilingon. "Look, Alas. I was just carried away, alright? What do you expect? It was the first time I experienced making out with someone. The feeling was new to me! Don't flatter yourself too much."

Bumangon na ako at astang tatayo na sa kama nang bigla niyang ikawit ang binti niya sa bewang ko dahilan para mapasubsob ako padapa sa kaniya.

Aksidenteng lumapat ang labi ko sa kaniya. My eyes grew wide and Alas seems so happy about it like he really wanted it to happen. I leaned my hands on his sides and pulled back.

"What the hell, Alas!" I growled.

He chuckled playfully. "Come over here. I have to tell you something."

He pulled me close again until my ear was now across his lips. Halos sumayad pa ang labi niya sa tainga ko dahilan para magtaasan ang balahibo ko sa katawan.

"Sakit ng puson ko," bulong niya na ikina-estatwa ko sa ibabaw niya.

Ilang segundo pa bago ako nakabawi at hinampas siya sa dibdib niya. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin pero tanging ngisi lang ang isinagot niyan sa akin.

"Pumunta ka ng banyo at mag-solo ka doon!" asik ko saka tuluyang umalis sa ibabaw niya.

Humagalpak siya ng tawa. "Sayang ang lahi, Ania. Aren't you curious what's going to look a like if we get to have our own kids?"

Papasok na sana ako ng walk in closet ko nang dahan-dahan ko siyang lingunin at sarkastikong ngitian.

"Are you not curious what you'd feel like in case I throw this flower vase on you?" I gestured the white vase near me.

His lips twitched and bit it in a very sexy way.

"That would be painful, hun. Pero wala ng mas sasakit pa sa puson na nabitin."