Heart Carver

Sharing Pain

It had been 2 days since her last encounter with Jin and after that all she did was rest. Though her wounds were no where near healed, she was glad the pain had lessened.

Time heals all wounds.

She sighed and closed her eyes. Suddenly, a voice startled her.

"Knock. Knock?" he grinned.

"T-Taehyung."

Taehyung sat next to her but she backed away as soon as he touched the bed.

"Backing off now are we?"

"Taehyung I hate getting in trouble but you seem to seek it. You get us both in trouble."

Taehyung sighed. "Ever think I did it for a reason?" he asked out of the blue.

Lisa was taken aback. "To hurt me."

"To bring you two close. Well.. . closer. I know hyung and I'm the only one who knows his past. Illegally ofcourse but still.. . Lisa you ignite a flame in his frozen heart."

"Taehyung.. . fine. How do I help him?" she asked helplessly.

"Run to him."

Lisa didn't think twice before breaking into a run, not stopping till she reached his room. Jin's room. She didn't stop to seek his permission to enter. For all she knew, he could be in trouble. Pain.

"J-Jin?" She was all out of breath. He sat on his bed in the dimly lit room. His back was towards her but she knew he was crying.

"Lisa what are you.. .doing here?" he asked in a weak voice.

"I don't know. I had to be."

An indescribable pain seeped in her heart to see him in that state. She rushed towards him and enveloped him in a hug.

"Talk to me Jin. I'm right here."

"Lisa I d-don't know. It just.. .  hurts so bad. So bad that I don't even know how I manage to breath. It's like every day I sink deeper in a pitch black pool of despair, unable to swim. I know people would want me to swim but they don't know what its like. Lisa the surface it.. . the surface feels too far away."

Lisa hugged him closer. "Maybe you want someone to tell you what drowning feels like instead of pushing you to swim. This way you'll know there's someone in the world feeling what you feel. Like you're not alone. Not the only one who thinks the surface is too far beyond reach."

"I'm always alone Lisa. And I'll always be," he said.

"We're two people sinking in the same ocean and yet you say ur alone."

They both sat on opposite sides of the bed and Jin began revealing the deepest most tortured pieces of his soul.

"I wasn't always like this Lisa. A killer. I used to have a house, parents. But I could never call it a home. I could never believe that they were my family. I was only an object to them. My father was a mafia boss himself and my mother was no different. She was just as cold.

Growing up, all I wanted was to count the stars at midnight, see the world and fall in love. But they had other plans. They wanted me to kill, torture.  They wanted to rip out my heart and carve it with darkness. But I could never satisfy them.

I couldn't kill or torture and everytime I refused i was beaten up. Everytime I thought twice before pulling the trigger I had to suffer.

They would beat me for hours and still wanted more. I told them to stop but they never did. Every word of theirs, their every action I felt like it cut my half in two.

Once I got so scared that I hid in my closet. I stacked so many clothes on me that I often thought I would due due to the loss of oxygen. I didn't talk, didn't eat, didn't come out for three days. Every time I heard their voices outside my closet I felt like I died a little.

One night I heard my mom's scream. Though I was scared but I still loved them so I ran down to see what had happened. I saw my dad fighting three men will my mom lay bleeding on the floor. I was so scared I hid under the curtains and watched. I saw my dad get a shot near his heart and fall down. I saw the other men leave the house and rushed towards my parents.

They told me it was my fault that they were dying like this. It was because I wasn't brave enough to carve out people's hearts. In their last words even, they told me how much they hated me. I was 9 when it happened. A-and I k-know it's my f-fault but-" Tears started to stream down his cheeks. He had held the pain inside him for so long that it felt a huge relief sharing his pain.

"After that my heart began to darken. Seeing people happy made me mad. It irritated me to witness love. My heart was so raw, no dark by that time that I started carving out other people's hearts.  And then I saw you Lisa. Saw you had a perfect little life and I ruined you. But every time I tortured you, every time you screamed in pain, every time you curled up in fear you reminded my of myself all those years ago.

You have the essense of my childhood innocence. A helpless young victim. I-I'm sorry.. ."

He looked up at Lisa whose face was glittering with transparent tears.

"I know what it feels like Jin. But in your case it wasn't your fault."

A huge lump formed in his throat. "No Lisa. You don't know what it feels like. Yoy can listen but not feel it. Not until you do it yourself."

Lisa started sobbing hysterically as memories of her own dark past begin to haunt her.

"I know what you feel Jin Goddamnit. I-I know what it feels like."

A/N:

Hi there my lovely readers.

Hope you liked the chapter.

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Next chapter will reveal Lisa's dark past.