Saving the Hero (a One Direction fanfic)

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Chapter 32-Thread

Harry’s point of view

We were finally back in America, we had arrived three days ago. First day was rest, second day was rehearsals, today was interviews. And today was also the day I get to see Erin again. She had asked for the days off to spend with her friends and today she would return with the rest of the crew.

“C’mon boys, hair and make-up,” Paul says, ushering us towards the dressing rooms as we enter the venue where our television interview would be.

“Have you seen Erin?” I ask him, hoping she were already here. 

“God forbid she isn’t, or else Harry won’t shut up about her,” Louis jokes sarcastically and Niall laughs.

“Sorry, Harry, she isn’t here yet,” Paul replies as we continue walking towards the room and I silently nod, letting myself be led inside and sat into a chair as they started putting some cream on my hair and fix my make-up.

I let the time pass, just staring at myself in the mirror blankly, trying not to let my feelings get over myself and back out from wanting to tell Erin everything. I had to let her know it all today. Because I couldn’t stand another day of this distance between us. I know that there’s a possibility she’d not want me back but I still had to try.

With my thoughts continuously running through my head time passes quickly then Rose, Lou’s assistant and the one in charge of our hair and make-up today as Lou was running a bit late, taps my shoulder, telling me I was done.

“You’re done, love,” she tells me and I nod, standing up and going over to the table filled with snacks. 

Louis and Zayn weren’t done yet so they were still sitting down while Liam and Niall were on the couch, eating.

“Hey sorry I’m late,” Lou says, entering the room, hanging up her coat. “I had trouble finding Lux’s baby bottle and it was bloody traffic. I got you lads to thank for that.”

“Sucks for you,” Niall jokes and Lou smacks him on the head and hands Lux over to Liam who gladly took her.

“Lou, did you arrive with Erin?” I ask quietly approaching her.

Lou looks at me and gently shakes her head. 

“How…how’s she been doing?” I ask another.

“She’s good.” Lou says with a smile, “She’s staying strong.”

I nod as Lou gently pats my cheek and goes over to help Rose with Zayn’s hair.

I could feel my heart hammering against my chest and my hands get sweaty. I felt like I was on the edge of the cliff, about to take a jump. I couldn’t quite explain it. It was as if I couldn’t wait to tell her but at the same time I dreaded it, feared it. I was afraid she’d push me away, afraid she had permanently shut me out and it was a truth I wasn’t sure I was ready to face. But I had to be strong. I had to fight for her because I didn’t want her to keep believing that I was douche like Shane was to her. I didn’t want her to believe that every guy she would let in would take her for granted. I couldn’t stand it for another day that she would think that I was never sincere. And that washed over the fear.