⚠️mentions of abuse and ptsd ⚠️ actually kinda sad but ends good ⚠️ details of some abuse⚠️ bit of fluff I won't say who with heheh ⚠️
You lay in your bed staring at the ceiling. The soft snores of I.N and Han seeming like loud growls in your ears. You can't sleep. What ever you try you can't. Mediations, music massages nothing works. The memories are to much. The feeling of his hand across your face the pain is to fresh. Your therapist says it will fade but the imprint he made on your skin is still there. The scars of his hands still crawl beneath your skin as you try sleep. You decide to go for a walk outside, walking beneath the stars calms you. You stare at the wide sky the sprinkle of stars across the infinity of sky. You close your eyes and breathe in and out letting the memories take you away
*flashback* He walks towards you. Determination in his eyes you cower in the corner as he raises his belt bringing it down in you again and again... *flashback over*
You walk up from your fever dream still on the bench but the sun is beating down on your face. You know you slept but you still feel drained you walk back to the dorm. The boys all run over to you as you enter "Where were you" "I thought you had been stolen" "Are you ok" All the boys expressing feeling of concern to you. You push past them mumbling that you have to go to school... - The sleepless nights continued Chan would ask why your so tired you would just shake him away or change the subject. - Your eyes would fight to close but the memories itch at your brain scaring you not to sleep. - 12:00pm The clock reads the boys are dancing late you lay awake his face whirling in your mind. You get up to get a glass of water the guys in the kitchen just getting home.
*Seungmin POV* "She looks so tired" Chan says again. We just got back from dance and I.n went to go check on y/n she was still awake staring at the ceiling I.n had said. "Yeah so tired" Changbin repeats all our voices laced with concern. We all hear soft pad of feet we all go quiet as y/n walks in her eyes dropping and her head hanging. She looks so small in my hoodie it reaches all the way to her thighs she has the hood on her hair sticking out if it. She looks up her eyes full of something horrible as if she has seen death himself. "Hey guys back late it's um very late I thought you guys would be asleep" she stutters. I walk over to her holding her hand tilting her face towards me so she is looking at me. "We thought you would be asleep that's why we weren't loud" "oh" y/n let's put a nervous laugh "um no I um I um just was um getting a drink of water to go back to sleep" "or to stare at the ceiling and lie to us about sleeping" I say softly the room tightens as I say it her eyes widen she steps back but there's a wall behind her "um i don't know what your talking about" she stammers even harder "we just want to help" Han whispers "we don't want you to not be sleeping because of us" Felix pouts "NO no no no" she says fiercely "that's not it at all it's just...." she looks at the ground her hand falling out if mine. It all clicks all of a sudden the details of her telling me her horrible past clicks. I look at her my heart weakens and my face go soft. I tilt her head towards mine own so we are inches apart "don't lie to us ever again" and I pick her up carrying her like this
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She nuzzles her face in the crook of my neck "let's try and sleep hunny" I turn to face the boys y/n still in my arms they nod and shoo me away.
I fall on her bed she stays on top of me I feel her body start to shake with sobs "no no no no y/n/n (your nickname) why are you crying" she sobs into my shoulder harder "I don't deserve you" "Hey Hey Hey don't say that" I grab her face and hold it in my hand "you are so special and important your beautiful it doesn't matter what thoughts come to your head there not gonna hurt you again HES not gonna hurt you again I am right here ok?" She cry's harder but nods she nuzzles into the crook of my neck. I rub her back singing to her softly after awhile I hear her soft snores and I know she's safe here in my arms....
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