Living with Stray kids

Scars till your beautiful

This is a sad one a really big Angst (self-harm) please don't read this if you feel triggered, go take a walk or drink some tea. Love you 🌹 rose

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You woke up feeling very sad and depressed you didn't know why. You got up dragging your tired body off your bed putting in a massive hoodie from Changbin and leggings walking into the kitchen. Felix and Seungmin sat at the table chatting.

"Hey," Felix says softly as you drag yourself to the coffee machine, Felix walks over giving you a back hug nuzzling into the crook of your neck breathing in your scent. He stays there as you make your coffee making you giggle when he moves with you when you get the sugar from the pantry.

You turn around to face him, you lift his face so you close together. He suddenly grabs your jumper holding the large fabric in his hands

"why are you wearing something so big, stop wearing Changbin's stuff, wear mine"
he giggles taking off his hoodie and passing it to you. He starts to unzip your hoodie you quickly step back. Snatching the hoodie from his hands and walking out of the kitchen. Rushing into your bathroom locking it.

You breathe a sigh of relief leaning against the door sliding down to the ground. Tears threaten to spill out of your eyes, you haven't told the boys about your scars. You take off your hoodie looking down at the scars all over your arms. You stare at them. You haven't cut in a 2 month but the temptation was so strong. You grabbed the blade that you hid in the cabinet and slowly slide the blade across your skin creating multiple new scars. Blood poured out it.  You quickly applied pressure to it. Wrapping your arm up in a bandage.

You breathe out not realising you were holding it. Grabbing the outfit you put in here this morning; white tank top, black trackies and Felix's hoodie. You let out a shaky breathe, wiping the tears from your face. You walk out of the bathroom, into the kitchen where all the boys were hanging out.

"Hey y/n," Felix says walking over kissing you on the cheek you go bright red "we are just going to the practice room ok?" 

"Can I come?" you say looking at the ground you haven't told the boys about your talent for dancing, the boys look at each other with confusion. 

"I mean sure I guess..." Minho says a bit confused, you giggle at their faces. Felix grabs your hand 

"come on it will be fun"

>at the practise room< 

You sit on the floor your back leaning against the mirror in front of them your legs crossed beneath you. You watch in awe as they dance together as one, you do the routine in your head, moving your hands to the beat. 

When they're finished you clap loudly standing up jumping on the balls of your feet slightly. Felix comes over and squishes your cheeks, 

"you're too cute" he places a small kiss on each cheek grabbing your arm tightly. You blush and wince 

"Felix" you whisper, tilts his head in response "um can you not hold onto my arm it hurts"

He lets go immediately backing away "I bumped it so it hurts" he nods his head not completely convinced. 

Suddenly over the speaker 'My house' by 2 pm, and you can't help yourself. You run to the centre of the room ripping off your hoodie forgetting completely about your scars and start the dance. All the boys stare at you wide-eyed. They laugh as you dance to it however, all of them noticed the bandage.

(A.N not to be that person but you completely killed it, as in boom murdered.)

You end the dance huffing and puffing. the boys clap and jump around you all except for one. A cold breeze hits your arms and you realize you have no jumper on. You try to pick it up off the floor but Felix kicks it away. He grabs your arms, he slowly unwraps the bandage staring at your fresh scars he gasps. All the boys gasp as well. 

"Babygirl why did you do this...what..." Chan says stuttering at the state of your arms. Han pushes past the boys and hugs you tightly, Jeongin, then Minho, Hyunjin, Changbin, Chan, Seungmin and finally Felix. 

"We love you baby don't every forget that"