Fear of the dark. [YiZhan FF - Mystery Thriller]✔️

18. - Barricades

18. - Barricades

Since we didn't get to talk about Zhan's father last night because I wasn't feeling well, Zhan offered to talk about him, after I asked him again what kind of person his father was and why he said he wished he could apologize to his father for not turning out the way his father wanted him to.

Everyone else is just resting since we just had lunch. So Zhan and I went to our room, sat down on our bed, we also have a table and two chairs there now, which we got from the visiting room, and Zhan then started to tell me the story between him and his father.

"You know, it seems like my parents switched roles the day I was born. My dad always wanted to be a father, in fact it was his greatest wish. Then when I was born, he took care of me day and night and even my mom had trouble getting to me. My dad always let me sleep on his chest, held me in his arms the whole night and that, until the birth of my sister, two years later. And even then he was still totally crazy about me. - My sister was the absolute mommy child. Although my dad also adored my sister, he usually took more care of me. I don't know why, it was just always like that. I was with my dad, my sister was with my mom. - No matter how many years passed, I was and am his baby ZhanZhan for my dad. He always clung to me very much, but since my sister's death, even more so. - His greatest wish for me was always that I myself would one day find a loving and beautiful wife and then start my own family with her, to see how great it is to be a father. He had always talked about it since I was three years old. - However, I realized as a teenager that I was different. But because I was always afraid of hurting my father if I told him I might never have a wife, I kept my secret - Then when my sister died, it had gotten worse, he clung even more and talked almost every day about how much he was looking forward to being a grandfather someday. - Well, my sister had just died, and I couldn't take that pressure anymore and it burst out of me. I told him I would never have a wife because I wasn't into women. My dad didn't look at me, he just got up and went into his hobby room. My mom just said that it didn't matter, then it wouldn't be a wife, it would be a husband. For four or five days my dad didn't talk to me, then he came into my room, sat down with me and said, no matter who you marry, I will always love you and you will always be my baby ZhanZhan. I will never stop loving you and you will always be the best thing that happened to me. And even though he said that, he had this sad look in his eyes and I knew I destroyed his dream. Even though it's not my fault, I'm sorry I didn't turn out the way he always wanted me to. My dad deserved it, believe me."

I listened to Zhan and saw the love for his father in his eyes. I also have a good relationship with my father, as well as with my mother. But I think the relationship between father and son with Zhan and his dad must be very special or particular. I'm sure we'll talk a lot more about his dad someday, but for now, it's perfectly enough for me to understand why Zhan had said that.

Now I wish even more, I had at least a little bit of signal on my cell phone, then we could call all of our families and talk to them. Maybe "they" will allow us to call our families so we can tell them we are ok.

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After our talk, Zhan and I also slept for a little while. There's not much else we can do right now anyway. Walking around the corridors, talking, eating and sleeping. That's all.

We also took our medication for the first time earlier. André said it was better to take them voluntarily before they really find a way to force us to. And it would also be in our best interest to stay healthy in case there really is some kind of pathogen in the cave.

We also just talked about how we are going to deal with Station 2 now. Since they feel threatened by us and they have already put something in our food once, we should come up with something to keep them away from us. At the moment we have protected the door to our station with a barricade, because among the many keys, unfortunately there was none for the door. But that doesn't work for the elevators. Especially not now that we receive our deliveries via them.