Unplanned Plans ◤𝓕𝓸𝓻𝓽𝓱𝓚𝓲𝓽 ◥

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"Mom.. I--"

*Slap!

I felt the burning sting but I'm seeking for more pain.. A pain enough to plaster this drowning fear..

"I don't know what else to do to you! We never asked you to be always with Kit.. We never asked you to serve him.. We never asked you to love him!! But Forth! How can you let this happen? How can you let their life be at risk?!"

Mom huffed still trying to hold back her eagerness to snap my throat.. How I wish, she'll do.

"So we won't even know about his follow up check up if this is not going to happen? And you know that but dared to do this?!"

Because I promise I'll protect him as his husband.

I promised but I'm a failure. I failed Kit..

I felt my knees trembled and my throat got heavy of my voice.. I don't think I can do this.. I don't think I can take this.. but..

"Mom.. Mom.. Not my son.. Not Kit.. Mom, I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. I'm s-sorry.. Mom it's my fault.. It's my fault.. Not our baby.. Mo--"

"Shut up!"

Mom wrapped me with her tenderness.. but this agony was overwhelming..

"You know we promised to be with you two.. We will do everything for them.. Don't be stupid.. They're going to be okay.. Stop crying.."

I heard how her voice soften.. Is this how being a parent is? I.. wish I can deserve them..

Kit was still in the operating room..

Every second..

Every minute pass with Kit and our baby inside.. Makes me want to die..

I know..

It's my fault..

It's my fault..

It's my fault I can't let go of Beam..

It's my fault I can't give myself fully to Kit..

It's my fault..

It's my fault..

I always fail.

I'm a failure.

I can't do anything right.

I always try my best but I'm always wrong.

I'm wrong.

I'm wrong.

I'll receive whatever punishment there is.

Just not my son and Kit.

My little family never did wrong.

It's me.