golden - Spencer Reid

home - chapter 10

I needed to go home, I need to care for myself, I needed...to not feel like this anymore.

I woke up the next morning with Hotch and Rossi speaking to each other outside my door. No one was in the room with me so I sat up and looked around. I was still very sore so sitting up wasn't the easiest. Soon Hotch walked in with Rossi, when he saw me sitting up he smiled a bit. "Glad to see your awake and sitting up, Emily and JJ are getting you food and Spencer, Derek, and Penelope are cleaning up your house and making it easier for you to get around there. You will be taking a month off from work" He said. I frowned when I heard I would have to take a month off but knew it was for the best. I nodded and turned my frown into a smile when I seen Emily and JJ walk in with some soup and jell-o.

after eating - bath

I had to be helped up to get in the bath so Emily asked if I'd like her help, of course I said yes. Once she helped me run the bath water and helped me undress, she slowly put me down into the nice warm bath water. "I'll be outside the door if you need anything" She said softly before walking out. I slowly sank down into the bath water and closed my eyes. 

~flashbacks~

"Liz! Liz come onnnn, I can't swim" Spencer whined. "Oh please! Your a genius and you can't swim?" I asked with a small laugh as I dove into the pool. "Elizabeth has been swimming for a very long time now" Nicole said. Me and Spencer were back home visiting our family and decided to take everyone to a beach but Spencer was not having it. I laughed and pulled Spencer into the pool since he was in swim trunks and didn't have a shirt on. He yelped once he hit the water but all I could do was laugh.

~end of flashback~

Tears were now filling my eyes, I let them fall and let out a small sob. I heard someone walk into my room and heard Emily start to speak. I couldn't quite understand what she was saying but I knew she was talking to someone. I wiped my tears and slowly began to wash my hair, then I washed my body.

after the bath

I tried to get out by myself but it didn't work very well, all I manged to do was fall out of the tube and cover myself with a towel. "E-Emily?" I yelled but there was no response. "U-uh it's just me" I heard Spencer's voice. "Ca-can you help me?" I sighed before I saw Spencer walk in. "Can't get up?" He asked as he slowly wrapped his arms around me and picked me up. "Obviously" I said with some sass. Spencer chuckled and held me well I slipped on my clothes. He didn't look of course and was very careful where his hands were. After I was dressed Spencer laid me down and sat across from me. 

a week later

I was now back home with Emily and JJ. They were going to stay with me for a little bit so I wouldn't get hurt or hurt myself worse. "Home sweet home" They said at the same time. I smiled a bit and wheeled myself over to my couch. The doctors had put me in a wheelchair so I could move around on my own so I didn't understand why I even needed Emily or JJ, I knew they could help more but I didn't want help. It made me feel like a burden. I sighed and looked around my house. I was so clean and looked as good as new. I felt so happy to be home, I needed to be home and stay home to wrap my head around everything that has happened. I was terrified of the world now and couldn't trust anyone anymore. Not even my own team, not even...myself. I wheeled myself to my bedroom and shut the door, I guess the two knew I needed some time and they left me alone which I didn't mind at all. I sat by my window and watched people walk around outside like they weren't scared at all, but me..I could barely go outside because it was so scary to me. I was always alert now.