golden - Spencer Reid

long day - chapter 20 TW!cheating,yelling

~arriving at work~
~Elizabeth's POV~

I pulled into my parking spot I always parked in and took a deep breath. I didn't want to go in but money is money. I unbuckled and grabbed my things before getting out of my car. I walked into the BAU and took another deep breath. I quickly walked to my desk, walking past Spencer looked very stressed out and exhausted. I sat down and began to do some paperwork. I felt Spencer's eyes on me, they were burning into my back. Usually I would get to work with Spencer and we'd kiss each other before the day started. Tears filled my eyes as I thought about how happy he used to make me feel. My heart felt like it was being squeezed tightly, like it was going to break. I wiped my eyes and took a deep breath. I put a fake smile on my face and walked up to Emily and began to talk about making weekend plans. That's when Hotch walked in and said "We have a case". Fuck.

~the round table~

I walked into the round table room with Emily and sat between her and JJ well Derek sat with Reid and Garcia. Rossi was standing beside Hotch talking before he sat down. Hotch explained the case and told us to grab our "to go" bags. I sighed knowing that the only person who knew about me and Spencer was JJ so Hotch would most likely ask us to share a room so we could get less rooms and save money. I looked at Spencer who was already looking at me and quickly turned away. I grabbed my to go bag and got on the jet and sat down in the back. I noticed someone walking up to me so I looked up. It was Spencer. I quickly started grabbing my things but he sat down and grabbed my hands, pinning them to my lap. "Please talk to me. Just a few minutes, Please" He begged. I didn't say anything I pulled my hands out of his grasp and looked up at him, giving him the sign that I would listen to him. "I know that we are over and that I am a horrible person but what are we going to do about the team? Because I don't want them to find out that I-" "That you cheated? Hmm? JJ already knows. Why not tell the rest?" I cut him off. "Liz please.." He started. "Don't Liz me. Spencer you broke me. I won't tell them yet. But you better figure out a good ass story and if I hear about your little Maeve I will tell everyone who she is and why we really broke up. Do you understand?" I said/asked. "Y-yes" He simply said. That's when Derek walked up to us and smiled. "How is my favorite couple?" He asked. I forced a fake smile and replied with a simple "Great!". "Any plans for after the case?" He asked with a smirk. "Oh probably just getting the rest of our house set up" Spencer said. My heart broke. Our house. Spencer and Derek went on to talk before Derek asked if he could excuse himself to go talk to Garcia. Of course we let him. I didn't realize that Spencer had been holding my hand up until he pulled his hand away from mine. I let out a small sigh and curled into a ball in my seat and closed my eyes. All I wanted was to sleep so I wouldn't have to look at Spencer or here him talk anymore, I used to love to hear him talk, look at him, watch him get excited over the littlest things, but now. Now I couldn't even look at him.

~arriving~

"Liz, wake up. We're here" Spencer said as he gently shook me. "Hmm? Oh okay" I said softly as I sat up and rubbed my eyes. I yawned and stood up. "Hey Spenc-" I was about to ask him to grab my things like I used to. "Never mind" I simply said as I walked over to my bag and grabbed it. I sighed and walked off the jet. I walked over to JJ and began to talk. We talked about how this case should go and how it shouldn't take long. We all got into a car and headed to the hotel so we could start the case early next morning. "Reid and Liz you two are sharing a room, JJ and Emily, Derek and Garcia and me and Rossi have our own room's" Hotch said.  Panic set in again. I gripped onto JJ's arm and took deep breathes. Spencer walked up to me and whispered "Want me to talk to him? I can...I'll say you want a girls night or-" "N-no we slept in a bed together before we even started dating. It's fine" I said. JJ and Spencer didn't look sure but they nodded. I walked into mine and Spencer's room and sat my stuff down. I sighed and sat down on the bed me and Spencer would share. I slowly began to take my shoes off. Spencer was at a phone booth outside on the phone with I amused was Maeve. My eyes began to water as I threw my shoes across the room. I sobbed and laid back. My chest went up and harshly fell down as sobs fell from my lips. I let myself cry for a few minutes  before I took a deep breath and stood up. I grabbed my pajama's out of my bag and walked into the bathroom. I stripped of everything and grabbed the two towels that were in the closet in the bathroom. I then turned on the shower and got in once it was warmed up. I did my normal routine which took about 25 minutes, but I took an extra 20 to just cry again and then relax. I heard the door open and knew Spencer was now getting ready for bed. I sighed and turned the shower off and stepped out. I dried my hair and body before I changed. I was in one of Spencer's old shirts he gave me when we first met and a pair of joggers and also a hoodie so Spencer couldn't see my shirt. I walked out of the bathroom after cleaning it up and laid down in bed. I plugged in my phone and turned onto my side so I could face away from Spencer.  I felt him facing me. I knew he probably wanted to talk, but I just couldn't face him. 

~the next morning~

I woke up to feel the weight of two arms around my waist. I heard soft snores. I slowly tried to wiggle out of his grasp but there was no use. I sighed as I felt tears threaten to fall from my eyes. His touch felt like home but I knew it was wrong. I heard him wake up. He didn't move his arms. He yawned and buried his face into my neck. I knew he was awake because he yawned very loudly and mumbled about how early it was. "S-S-Spencer please let me go" I whispered as tears began to fall. "Huh? O-oh I am so sorry" He said as he pulled away. I immediately got up and went to the bathroom, I sat down on the toilet after I locked the door and sobbed into my hands. I heard Spencer looking for clothes. I knew he probably wanted to go talk to Maeve and not listen to me cry anymore. I grabbed some tissue and blew my nose. I stood up and began to do my hair and makeup. I sighed a bit and walked out. To my surprise Spencer was still there, he was sitting on the bed with a pair of my clothes in his hands. "Here, get dressed and then we can talk" He said. I nodded and slowly took the clothes. I went back into the bathroom and changed. I walked back out and sat down beside Spencer. "I know...I know I hurt you, I need you to know though that I did love you at one point...It's just...Maeve is my soulmate. I belong with her. I am so sorry Elizabeth" Spencer said. I let out a sob and stood up. "Ge-get out.." I said. "Eliz-" "GET OUT! YOU CHEATED ON ME AND NOW YOU THINK SHE'S YOUR SOULMATE?! FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU! SO MUCH! YOU RUINED ME" I yelled. Spencer quickly walked out only to find the whole team outside the door. Panic filled myself and Spencer as we saw everyone. I messed up. No he messed up.