Dysfunctional Family (Sequel to MTIN)

Chapter 26

Megan's P.O.V

I decided I was gonna stay home and not go to England... I may go to visit them for like a week sometime while mom and Justin are gone but then come back.

I can't be away from my friends for to long ... Especially Ryan

Tyler is ok now. Obviously it's pretty awkward and weird that Justin raped my mom but Tyler said he's gonna have to deal with it.

He is completely right.

I got home from hanging with Lindsay
And checked my phone. We were playing softball the whole time so I wasn't on my phone.

I had a miss call from Ryan.

I called him back

"Hello" a girl answered

"Um is Ryan there or is this the wrong number?" I asked. It couldn't be the wrong number cuz I went under his contact. Which is the right number cause I talk to him all the time.

"No this is his number, he's busy" she said

"Um who's this?" I asked her

"Ryan's girl friend" she said.

Hold up, did she say girlfriend ?

"Girlfriend?" I asked

"Yep" she said. "Do you want me to tell him you called?" She asked

"No. No I'm good" I said trying to be polite to her. It's not her fault , She probably doesn't know he has another girlfriend.

I hung up the my phone and stared at it for a couple seconds.

Once I came out of my thoughts I threw my phone to the wall.

It shattered to pieces, but I didn't really care right now.

I sat on the floor next to my bed and cried.

I thought he loved me. I thought he was the one. I thought this was real. I thought we had a thing. I thought he cared.

'YOU FUCKING THOUGHT MEGAN STOPPING THINKING AND GET TO THE FACTS DUMB ASS' I mentally screamed to myself

with him I felt whole and filled and that I was someone. Now I'm back to the feeling before Ryan came into the picture. When I was lonely and had no friends, when I was the only one in the school hated, when Lilly and Mia made a total dumb ass out of me.

While I sat their crying and thinking to myself I made my decision. I'm going to England with mom and Justin. I'm not staying here. Tyler and Ryan are still gonna be friend, so I have to stay away from Tyler now too.

Wow before Ryan I still had Tyler. Now no one. Literally no one.

I got my suitcases and packed my stuff.

After I packed my stuff I text my mom to tell her I was going with her. We were leaving in two days.

Staying for half and year. So I will have to do online school or go to a school there.

I locked my door. Cause I just wanted to be alone.

Who am I kidding no one is gonna wanna come in my room any way.

I'm a loner.

I had an idea.

Really bad idea. Something that will scar me.

I haven't done it in awhile. Well actually since Ryan came into my life.

I don't know why I still had them.

I opened my nightstand drawer and took out the only thing that I had left to comfort me. A really bad comfort.

My blades.

I took the blades and went into my closet and sat in the corner of my closet.

Why am I doing this?
Stop Megan, don't do this.
Do it do it do it.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

I closed my eyes. And it happened

I opened my eyes and my wrists were bleeding.

Oh god.

Very weirdly I felt relief. This was the only way to get my stress away.

I put the blade on the floor and just tilted my head back so it was resting on the wall.

Everything ran threw me head.

I never thought I would ever do that again.

Soon there was a knocking on my door. I was still in the closet. But my door was locked so good luck to them trying to get in.

Soon the knocking stopped. Probably just mom wanting to see if I was all packed.

I rested my head back on the wall.

I'm was still crying. My wrists were still bleeding.

Shit, did i go that deep ?

I started crying again not only was the pain in my wrist getting worst, all the memories of me and Ryan were still in my head. I couldn't get them out.

While I was crying my closet door opened.

"MEGAN!"

Oh god dammit how did he get in?

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