Guilty All The Same (English)

16 - Together

"You're not really going to spend the whole day here?" Yurika clutched the pillow to herself and didn't answer. "Yurika you can't stay in bed all day!" "Yes, I can." Blurted out the girl. "You know he's going to come into this room sooner or later, right? You don't want to be found in this state?" "He doesn't care anyway." Yurika mumbled in response. 

Kurena sighed. She had never seen the girl so dejected, but she couldn't let her act like that.

 Then Yurika relieved herself. "You're right." She whispered and stood up heading for the walk-in wardrobe. 

Ferid wasn't interested in her, but maybe if she put her mind to it, she might be able to turn things around. She sighed and began to pass the clothes through. 

"Kurena, what I have to do?" The demon resurfaced. "You could try a shorter one. "Yurika huffed. "It's not like undressing me is going to accomplish anything." "Yurika... Your uniform was much shorter." The girl pretended she hadn't heard and continued to pass the clothes around until one caught her eye. 

She picked it up and placed it on her to gauge its length. "Look at this one, it looks like it reaches a little more below the knees." The demon reappeared. "And it leaves the shoulders bare.... Looks nice." Kurena smiled at her. "Have it your way. If you like." And disappeared. 

Yurika decided to try on the dress. It didn't look that bad on her. Then she looked at her reflection in the mirror, focusing on her hair. She arranged it on her shoulders, as it didn't look too bad after all. She smiled at her reflection. 

"You always say you prefer it loose..." But in her heart, she knew it wasn't that simple. It wasn't enough to look prettier to win someone over. She would have to do something more concrete, but she would never have the courage. Especially knowing that she meant nothing to Ferid. She felt like crying once again.

She took a deep breath and calmed down. As she walked back into her room she heard a knock at the door. She looked down and smiled as her heartbeat increased. "Come in." She whispered and went to sit on the bed. 

"Hi, Yu..." Ferid froze for a moment upon seeing her. "...Rika." He concluded still surprised. Surprised to see her in a very different outfit, but especially to see her with her hair down. She was simply beautiful. There were no other words to describe her. 

Yurika was concerned to see him standing still and motionless and didn't understand why he was looking at her like that. It didn't take long for her to blush under his gaze. 

Ferid smiled and approached her. "Have we decided to change our look?" He asked. "I wanted to try something different." Yurika replied simply. 

The vampire extended an arm towards her. The girl lifted her gaze to his, looking at him uncertainly. 

What did he want? Was he thirsty? She extended her arm to his as well and placed her hand on his. Ferid squeezed it and helped her up, pressing her against his chest as he wrapped his other arm around her waist. For a moment their eyes met, brown and red, their faces very close.

 "You're beautiful." Ferid whispered to her before lowering his face to her neck and sinking his canines into her skin. 

A groan of pain escaped Yurika as her hands tightened on the vampire's shirt; he had prepared her for the bite the other times, why was it so violent now? 

Soon she felt her legs grow weaker, but the vampire also sensed this change in her body and increased his grip on her, supporting her. 

Then he let go of her neck, intending not to overdo it, but he didn't release the girl. 

Yurika lowered her gaze, sensing Ferid's on her, the same way she sensed his arms around her body. Couldn't he just leave her alone? It would have made things far easier for her. At least easier to bear. 

Instead the vampire was trying to remain calm and not do anything rash, he had already risked too much with Yurika. He could feel the girl's heartbeat becoming more and more irregular, he could feel the tension in her body, but he wasn't about to give up on her. He moved a hand to the girl's face, caressing it gently. 

"Excuse me, my little sheep. I was a little rash, but what can I do? You are so irresistible." He whispered in a seductive tone. 

Yurika shuddered once again. "Now you can let me go if you're done." But she found herself once again fighting against those damn tears that kept showing up at the most inopportune moments. 

The vampire couldn't help but notice the girl's change as hot tears began to run down her face. Ferid ran a finger over Yurika's cheek to wipe away her tears and she tried to pull back, but the vampire's grip on her was too strong. "Yurika are you so terrified of me?" 

The girl lifted her gaze to the vampire, and he found himself looking into those tear filled eyes. "No Ferid, I'm not afraid of you.... I..." And she left the sentence hanging as the vampire moved his hand to her neck, entwining his fingers in her hair. 

He slowly lowered his face and, as if it was the most natural thing in the world, placed his cold lips on hers. 

Yurika closed her eyes and surrendered herself completely to Ferid's lips, savoring every moment of that gesture, her hands clasped to the vampire's shirt. 

When the two broke away, Yurika took deep breaths, trying to catch her breath. 

She opened her eyes again and searched for answers in Ferid's red eyes. 

"This was supposed to be our first kiss." Said the vampire. 

A smile escaped the girl's lips. "We could pretend this was it. Our first real kiss." 

Ferid smiled at her and returned, more passionately, to the girl's lips, enveloping her completely in his arms. Then he rested his forehead on hers. "Perhaps that is precisely why you are so irresistible to me. I can feel the frantic beats of your heart." He laughed.

"If it wasn't for the fact that I'd be in serious danger of bleeding you out I'd gladly sink my fangs back into your neck, but..." He gave her a light kiss on the nose. "You are too precious to me. My days would go back to being bloody boring without you." 

A slight blush surfaced on Yurika's cheeks. "I almost can't believe it..." She whispered. 

"What?" 

"All this Ferid." 

Still, she laid her head on the vampire's chest, and he didn't hesitate to hold her close. 

Yeah, Ferid reflected. 

He could hardly believe it himself. Especially when he thought back to how their relationship had begun. Not in the best of ways. 

As he held her, he felt the warmth of her body, as if he was realizing this for the first time, but his main problem was another: how was it possible that a girl like Yurika really had feelings for him? For a monster. And him, what right did he have to love? After all he had done, what right did he expect to be loved and accepted by her?

07/02/2021