A reason to fight for.//elmax-Madmage

Chapter 40:

Max didn't think that it was a good idea.

-El, I don't...uhm...I don't think that we should do that. I mean, you don't even know what we would do and like, I don't think you're ready. And honestly, I don't think I'm ready either and I don't want to do-, rambled the redhead avoiding her girlfriend's gaze.

-Max-, tried Eleven.

-And maybe you think you're ready and I know that I can't decide that for you and-, continued the older girl.

-Max-, tried the brunette louder this time. 

-I really don't  think-, started Max.

Eleven rolled her eyes and kissed her, making Max blush, but the brunette immediately pulled away.

-Sorry, I needed you to shut., chuckled Eleven shyly.

-Oh feel free to shut me up like that whenever you desire. Wait, I didn't mean to say that out loud. Uhm, alright., rambled the redhead once again.

-Max., sighed the younger girl.

-Right, sorry., said Max finally shutting up.

-It's okay if you're not ready. Plus, I don't know a lot about all of that. I don't want you to feel uhm pressured? That's the word, right?, frowned the brunette.

-Yes., smiled the older teenager while nodding.

-Okay, so yeah. Don't feel p-pressured. I love you. I like being around you. I love to hear your laughter. I love the way you smile. I love that you're so creative. I love so much about you, I don't know where to start.Every time I'm with you, you always win my heart. The only thing that matters, the only thing that's true Max, the only thing I'd wish for is being around you. I don't care what we do, because as long as I'm around you, I'm happy. You are my happiness. So don't feel pressured, because I don't care about all of that. All I care about is you. I care about you, Max., smiled the brunette blushing as she talked with a little voice as her confidence slowly faded, as she got more vulnerable.

-God, I don't know what I did to deserve you. Don't ever leave., whispered Max as she hugged her girlfriend.

-Never. I promise., swore the brunette.

Max's heart skipped a beat at that word. "Promise". Such a simple word, yet Eleven took it so seriously. She never breaks her promises, because that's what the guys taught her, and Max knew it. The party taught her well.

-How about we just, uhm, kiss? Not like simple kiss, but like-...I don't the word for-, tried Eleven as she fidgeted with her fingers.

-Make out., blurted Max out.

Eleven nodded shyly, avoiding her gaze as she kept fidgeting with her fingers nervously. Max was dying sitting next to her and seeing her act so cute and vulnerable. She's usually the badass Eleven, who can flip vans and make bullies pee, and also kill monsters who love to eat and kidnap children. Max was happy seeing her. The real her. Not the traumatized little girl who ran away after killing several men and opening a gate to another dimension. We're getting off track here, my bad. The redhead turned a bit to face her girlfriend, grabbed her hands, making her stop fidgeting them, and looked her in the eyes. Eleven continued avoiding her gaze, still unsure if Max wanted to do that. The redhead simply put her hand gently on the younger girl's cheek, and leaned in, their lips meeting. The brunette immediately kissed back, without any hesitation. Max moved her second hand to Eleven's side and slowly pushed her down on the bed as she stayed on top of her. Eleven's stomach was exploding with butterflies, while Max's heart was racing so fast that she was scared it would break out of her ribcage. The started moving in sync, Max kissing her girlfriend while rubbing her sides gently, and Eleven playing with the redhead's hair while enjoying kissing the older girl. Max suddenly stopped kissing her, making the younger girl confused.

-Is this too muc- oh shit., tried the brunette but Max started kissing Eleven's neck, making her cuss and tilt her head to give the redhead more access.

-You like that, hm?, smirked the redhead.

-Shut up., pouted the brunette.

-Oh yeah? Make me., provoked Max.

Eleven smirked, pushed Max off of her, got on top of her and pinned her hands down on the bed, while the redhead tried to comprehend what was going on.

-You seem pretty speechless to me., giggled the younger girl.

-Shut up and kiss me., pleaded the redhead not caring if she sounded desperate.

Eleven did as told and kissed her girlfriend passionately, as she moved her hands on Max's side, just like Max had done previously. The brunette's hand slipped and got underneath Max's t-shirt which made make startle and pull away from the kiss. Eleven immediately took her hand back realizing what she had done. 

-I'm sorry, I-, started the brunette but Max didn't look mad.

-Don't. It's okay. Give me your hand., ordered the redhead seriously.

Eleven obeyed and gave her hand to Max. The redhead lifted her t-shirt partly and put Eleven's hand on her skin.

-It's okay. I know it's you. I know you would never hurt me. I just didn't expect it and your hand were pretty cold to be honest. But it's okay, El., smiled the redhead softly.

-Are you sure?, asked the brunette.

-I promise., replied Max nodding.

Eleven gently rubbed her thumb on Max's soft skin.

-You know what?, said Max sitting up.

-Hm?, hummed the brunette out of curiosity.

Max took her t-shirt completely off.

-This is better., smiled the redhead as she looked her girlfriend in the eyes, but her eyes were scanning Max's body.

-Wow., whispered the brunette making Max blush.

The redhead automatically tried to hide her body again.

-Hey, no. Max, stop. You're so pretty. Don't hide., smiled the younger girl as she kissed her girlfriend's cheek.

-But...the bruises..., started the redhead.

-Do they hurt?, asked the brunette.

-Not anymore., shrugged Max.

-Then I don't mind them. You're still pretty, Max. So, so, so pretty., smiled the younger girl as she kissed her cheek every time she said "so", making Max giggle.

-I love you., smiled the redhead looking at her girlfriend.

-I love you too., replied Eleven kissing her lips this time.

Not a quick kiss.

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A/N: so I decided that you won't get any smut in this book, but therefore you'll get this chapter of fluff and I'll continue this scene in the next chapter as well. I'm thinking of eventually doing a time skip of like 8 years and maybe then I'll write their first time or something idk, I mean I imagine them being 15/16 years old in this fanfic meah