our rainy days || yang jungwon

Chapter 9

Jungwon POV
I remembered her, I mean of course I remembered her, I lik- I really loved her for years. When we were in elementary school we used to be so close but something happened and we drifted apart. It really hurt for the first few years, I found myself wanting to go up to her, to text her, to even walk past her, but I just didn't have the chance to do so.

I kept replaying and replaying the scenes in my mind, her smiles when she would open my letters, when she saved me from Park Sooyoung, when she was cuddled up against m- no that's sounds creepy but it helped my insomnia a lot to just think about her and how she was.

In around middle school, I had auditioned for SM Ent. and gotten in, training with them for almost a year when I saw that BTS were touring the world. They gave me inspiration I hadn't felt since I stopped writing letters to her, I longed to become the old me again so I quit SM Ent. and went for the Bighit auditions the next week.

To my surprise, I had passed the auditions and was set to join an idol survival show just a year later. Never would I have thought that I would've placed first, or that I would be standing in our dorm, staring at the girl I've been longing to see for years.

Let me tell you something, when you replay scenes in your head too often because you miss someone like crazy, you end up trying to use photographic memory to try and remember every little detail when you see them again, hoping that you'll remember everything when you replay the scene later on. "Ahem." Heeseung hyung had fake coughed, obviously someone was awake now.

I hadn't even realised we were staring, quickly looking down at the floor or at the members to avoid her gaze.

"Welcome to our dorm! Do you need any help with your luggage? We can help if you want!" I heard Jay hyung speak. Before I could reach out to help, Sunghoon hyung stepped up and led her to the guest room, so I plastered on a smile to cover my disappointment and ushered the other members back into the kitchen to finish our breakfast.

Jae-in POV
"I just have a few questions for you." Sunghoon's tone was cold, as if he was suspicious of me, which unsettled me. He seemed like he was going to interrogate me for a murder. I never committed a murder yet my face was covered in guilt. I mentally slapped myself for looking that vulnerable when he knew nothing about me... yet.

Not wanting him to notice how uncomfortable I got, I smiled weakly, saying "Sure..you can ask them while I unpack a little." With that, I got up and flipped my suitcase, unzipping it quickly as I felt Sunghoon's gaze bore down at me.

"You don't use honorifics, why is that ?" Sunghoon piped up after a moment of complete silence.

"I just don't like using 'Oppa', it's a little cringey, but if you want me to address you differently then do say so." I replied, slowly pulling out articles of clothing to refold and put into the dresser.

"No, just Sunghoon is okay with me, so I hear you helped Jake with his dancing a lot, is that true ?"

"Yeah..I used to help him when he was still auditioning for Bighit in 2018, I had around 7 years of dance experience at the time so he asked me to guide him a little." I slightly grinned, not wanting him to notice how proud I was of Jake for his improvement.

"I see, so what's the deal with you and Jungwon ?" Sunghoon asked nonchalantly, leaning back onto his arms that propped him up on the bed.

"Oh uh...we were classmates a while ago, nothing much," my eyes flitting back and forth from the floor to my dresser as I spoke, not wanting to see the look in his eyes.

I heard him get up off the bed and walk towards the door, nodding slightly before leaving me alone in the room. Well that was a hell of a questionnaire wasn't it, I thought to myself as I continued emptying out my luggage into the closets and dresser.

It was a simple room with a white and wooden overall theme, but it sure had a lot of storage space, which I wasn't going to complain about. After I had finished unpacking, I went out to the kitchen, hoping there was still some food since I hadn't had breakfast yet either.

When I got there, only Jungwon was left as the other members were in the living room playing video games and laughing.

"Hi...is there any food left ?" I asked quietly as I walked closer to him. Jungwon looked up from the counter where he had been washing the dishes, nodding towards the fridge before saying "You can check in there, I think there may be some bread." I checked the fridge but couldn't find a single piece of bread so I grabbed an egg and walked towards the other side of the kitchen, looking for a pan to fry the egg in.

Jungwon noticed and said "Is there no more bread ? I can help you fry that if you want you know, you must still be tired from the trip here."

He was closer than I thought as I turned to face him and nearly gasped as his eyes blinked back at me. We were like 4 inches apart, causing me to back up and hit the wall, real smart move by Jae-in there hmm. Anyway, afraid he would think that he intimidated me into stepping back, I quickly smiled and said "No no it's alright, I don't want to trouble you." Jungwon sighed, taking the egg from me and grabbing a bowl to crack it into, obviously unfazed by my comment.

As he whisked the egg with salt and pepper, he finally replied, cutting off the awkward silence by saying "It's no trouble at all, I'd be glad to help you with anything so just.. just come to me if you need anything.. okay?" He stopped whisking and looked at me. I froze at his genuine yet cold and unreadable expression, shaking myself out of it before smiling slightly, nodding. He wouldn't ever know it, but I'd go to him even before I'd go to my own brother because I missed him so much I felt like he was the rainfall in an arid desert.

-this is what i'm referring to HAHA

author's note :
i'll try my best to update a lil more often but i can't promise anything, do stay tuned though !