Sunny Side Up - JJ Maybank

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I was so lost in thought I didn't hear JJ knocking at the door, and was shocked when he poked his head in the bathroom, finding me still slumped on the floor drowning in self-pity.

He had a spare key in case you're wondering how he let himself in.

"Hey, sunshine," he cooed softly, making me look up at him, still feeling in a daze.

He gently helped me to my feet and as soon as I was standing I pressed myself against his warm body and relished in the feeling of safety I got whenever I was in his arms.

"I'm so glad you're here J, I don't know what to do."

"Let's just see what the test says first," he said.

He handed me the test from his bag, which I knew was filled with weed and lighters. We had matching lighters, by the way, with our initials carved into the each other's. Cute.

"God I feel like you're judging me so hard right now. I swear we used protection, the condom split and I'm not on the pill after it made me depressed last year," I explained, unable to read his expression as I glanced at the test in my hand.

"I would never judge you. This isn't your fault," although he sounded sincere I knew he hated that it was with Rafe, out of everyone.

"Thanks, J."

"Want me to stay here a while?"

"Do you mind?"

"Not at all."

He left the bathroom to give me some privacy while I took the test. I was shaking so much I was worried I wouldn't be able to do it but eventually I managed.

"Have you done it yet?" he called through the door, startling me as I had forgotten he was waiting outside.

"It says wait five minutes. Shit - I'm so nervous."

"Want me to come in?"

I unlocked the door without a word and he gave me a sympathetic glance before both of us glued our eyes to the piece of plastic in my hand.

It was positive.

I froze, letting the test fall limply from my hands, dissociating until JJ cleared his throat awkwardly.

"Shit."

JJ pulled me into his arms and we sank to the floor, I curled up and cried for what felt like hours as he held my head close to his chest and whispered sweet things in my ear.

"What am I going to do?" I tried to whisper, but my voice cracked with emotion.

"Maybe you could get an abortion?" he offered.

I shook my head and sobbed louder - I didn't have the money to get off the island for it.

"Maybe you can give the baby up for adoption?" he suggested once I'd calmed down.

I nodded numbly, not really taking in his words, it could be an option I guess - I'd just have to wait.

"How am I gonna tell my mom?" I asked, hoping he'd tell me everything would be okay and she'd be fine, but I knew she wouldn't.

"She's not here for another two weeks you don't need to worry about it yet."

JJ stayed in my house while I took a shower, understanding that I didn't wanna be alone right now, and when I returned he had cooked me some pasta and brought some warm clothes from the dryer.

"Thank you JJ, for everything."

"Always, sunshine, it's you and me against the world," he grinned, kissing the top of my head as he handed me the pasta.

"Can-can you stay the night? Please," I whispered, when dinner was long gone and we were watching cartoons on the TV to distract ourselves.

"Of course, let me just tell John B because I was meant to be staying at his tonight."

"How am I gonna tell the others? I can't hide it forever once I start showing – and Rafe. He's gonna know."

I was on the verge of crying again but JJ squeezed my hand offered a small smile.

"Don't think about it for tonight, we'll get some sleep and think about everything tomorrow."