What I'd Give to See Through You

Together

Thursday 18, September: 

Aeson: -today I woke up, and my first thought was Jaden. It felt warm. It's inevitable for me by now, I certainly can't believe he likes me back. I never thought I myself would like Jaden up until like three weeks ago (even though, I must admit there was a time I had a dream about him and ever since the feelings just grew), I thought I was immune to his enchants but it turned out I was only too used to liking him to realize how swooned over him I was. And now he also likes me? That's too much. I am now ready to go look for him, fixing my hair before knocking on the door. God, I feel how I felt in my first date.-

Jaden: good morning. -he opened. My heart flutters on my chest when I see him. He's stunning, so beautiful. He shines like the sun but I would rather die than stop looking at him.- oh... hi. -he smiled flushed when he saw me, looking down. Oh for all that's good.-

Aeson: hi... -I smiled. It would be a lie if I say I'm not somehow nervous too, which only feels heavy in my stomach. He's my best friend. At the end, he has always been. I know everything of him to certain point, as he also does with me. We've been together for years. But now it is different and it's difficult to really know how to feel. I mean, he could be my boyfriend one day. I don't know how I feel about having a boyfriend. This is still new to me, despite realizing my historic crush on Jaden. I don't know if guys should just- do this? Love each other this way? It feels strange to think of it but then I look at him and it all shuts down. I don't know if this is how I should feel or if it's offensive for him that I feel I should love him how I love a girl. Is that not the way? Not knowing if I'm doing things right always feels like a needle on my collar.- how are you? -I ask after seconds or minutes or hours looking at him. He was looking down at the floor, seeming ashamed.-

Jaden: fine and you? -he looked up, slowly, gently, his eyes making holes on mine. I want to kiss him so much. I want him to be my boyfriend. I don't know if men are allowed to love like this. But God, how I want to love him like this.-

Aeson: fine too. Let's go for Lio.

Jaden: sure. -he nodded, walking to Lio's room, without looking me in my eyes again. Uh... this is ringing bells in me now... I don't know if that means anything. He knocked on Lio's door.-

Lio: good morning. -she said opening the door.- hi guys! Good morning! -she smiled at us, walking to the stairs. She looks beautiful today, rested and fresh. That is nice.-

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Lio: how was your day yesterday, Jaden? -she asked walking to where the food was served.-

Jaden: it was... special. -he smiled at her.- and thank you for the jumpers, they're comfortable and fit very well. -he sounded thankful, tilting his head a bit to the side like somehow showing he appreciates the gifts.-

Lio: you're welcome, I knew you'd like them. -she also smiled, walking to a table and sitting.-

Aeson: did your parents text you? -I asked Jaden once we were all sat.-

Jaden: oh, yes. By the way, they told me to ask you if you want to come with me for winter break. -he asked, casually, softly moving his hand under the table to very gently nudge my leg with it. He kissed my lips off yesterday and today he's acting this shy? Adorable.-

Aeson: oh sure, tell them that I'd love to, and greet them from my side.- thanks God. I will be forever thankful for Jaden's parents taking me in during breaks so I'm not alone.-