What I'd Give to See Through You

Do you feel like I do?

TW: Very sensitive content regarding to SA, reliving of trauma, and use of a homophobic slur

Monday 8, September

Aeson: -this weekend was actually nuts. I discovered this feeling that is... indescriptible, but even though it happens to be towards Jaden, it feels strangely fine. Like, it feels ok. I mean, the rest of the Saturday and on Sunday I blushed to the sight of him though. We decided unspoken that we were never going to talk about what happened on Saturday. But after what he did, what else could I do? I do still think it's normal to feel the way I do about Jaden, it's just a bit more intense. I'm now getting ready for classes and eating breakfast before hearing knocks on my door.- yes? -I said opening the door to see Jaden.- oh, hi, how are you?

Jaden: I'm fine, thanks for asking... are you ready? We can go look for Lio, Reagan and Avy. -he said standing in front of me.-

Aeson: oh yes, sure. -I said a moment before he gets a lot closer to me, putting his hand on my nape like holding me.-

Jaden: you smell really good. -he sniffed on my neck almost directly, what made me feel like a fucking firework. But it felt good. Enjoyable, even.-

Aeson: really? Thanks. -I said grabbing softly his waist. Weird, but still not bad, I normally grab his waist when we're walking, so I can cover myself in that.-

Jaden: your welcome... -he said separating a bit so he can look at my eyes. He's blushed.- well, uh... let's go. -I like when he blushes, but I thought he only blushed when he felt bothered or teased. Maybe he feels the same way I feel? Does he regrets what he did? I wouldn't really like that. I mean what he did was ok. I liked it despite all.-

Lio: good morning guys! -Lio said, appearing from thin air just a second after I let go of Jaden's waist.-

Aeson: oh, good morning. -I smiled, a bit taken by surprise.-

Jaden: good morning. -he said, still blushed, in a sort of small voice.-

Lio: Avy and Reagan have an important something out of school today, so we're not going to see them until dinner. -she said looking curious at Jaden's face.- why are you so red? -she asked finally.-

Jaden: oh nothing, don't worry.

Lio: if you say so... you look you're about to faint. -she said funnily, Jaden snorted.- but it's not a worry, if you faint, Aeson can carry you to the nurse's office, you're like a feather for him. -she said laughing gently, same as Jaden.-

Jaden: I am. -he said smiling too, starting to walk, I didn't feel much like talking, I was just thinking about what I felt when he was smelling my neck, his face blushed, my hand on his waist, almost everything that happened in that moment, it was so fast, yet so nice. It felt warm all around my chest.-

Lio: earth calling Aeson! Are you ok? -she asks, snapping her fingers in front of my eyes.-

Aeson: oh, yeah, sorry, I was just thinking. -I answered, smiling at her.-

Lio: hm... -she looked at me suspiciously, squinting her eyes and all. Adorable.- let's go for food then. -she started to walk.-

Jaden: hey, did I do something you didn't like? -he asked, whispering while we were walking and Lio was a little further ahead.-

Aeson: no, of course not, don't worry... -I flashed a smile at him, calming. He did something I liked, in fact.-

Jaden: ok. -he replied and continued walking in silence.-