THE SWEETEST SIN(BxB)

57: The Break Up.

A/N: This is a sad chapter so hold on to your tissues/handkerchiefs and listen to to Lewis Capaldi 's Someone you loved as you read.

CARL

"Carlito it was a mistake. I didn't intend for it to happen...I don't know what I was thinking." He started talking. He reached out for my hand and as soon as he touched me, my body recoiled.

Suddenly, his touch made me sick to the stomach. I needed to vomit and get some air because being in the same room with him right now was suffocating. So, I got up from my seat and started walking away.

"Carlito, I know that I fucked up big time.. I'm sorry...please." He was following me, trying to convince me to pardon him after what I had witnessed. His voice drowned in the background as questions fogged my mind.

Why did he do it? Wasn't I enough? Did he ever love me? Or was I just something that he used and finally got tired of? Has he been cheating on me this entire time? How long has this been going on? Has our relationship been a lie this whole time?

As soon as I arrived outside, the fresh night air rushed to my lungs, snuffing out the asphyxiation.

The night sky was adorned with a constellation of stars that twinkled, bringing light to the dark sky. It was beautiful to watch how such little cosmic elements shone so gracefully in the dark. Gazing at the stars was hypnotizing and calming at the same time.

I wanted to gaze at the constellation the whole night and forget everything that I saw in there.

I wanted to pretend that my boyfriend didn't cheat on me because he promised never to hurt me. He had promised to always love me. Then why did he do this to me?

"Baby, I'm sorry. Please." He started wiping off my tears using the pad of his thumb.

"Don't you touch me!" I hissed, slapping his hands away. Tears licked their way down my cheeks as I glared at him. His green eyes that I was so in love with were clouded with guilt and a little bit of tears.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, Carlito."

"Then why did you do it Gavin?" I fired the question, hopeful that his answer would un-break my heart.

"I don't know. I swear it just happened...and I realized as soon as it happened that I had made a mistake." He explained, in a trembling voice.

"So you don't know how your dick ended up in her pussy? Is that what you are trying to say Gavin?" Anger and pain were surging through me, numbing my senses.

"Carlito...I...am sorry. I'm really sorry." He was sobbing.

"Sorry that you fucked her or sorry that I found out about it?" I hurled, not at all affected by his tears.

"I wanted to tell you but...I was scared that you wouldn't understand. I was terrified that I would lose you." He opened up, fear swimming in his eyes that I had found hypnotizing once.

"It's too late because you lost me the moment you decided to break my heart. Tell me, how many more secrets are you keeping from me Gavin? How long have you been cheating on me?" I was yelling at this point, anger overpowering my voice. A few people had gathered near the scene, witnessing the incident unfold but I didn't give a shit.

"Carlito can we talk somewhere private?" He mumbled, grabbing my arm.

"Why? Are you scared of people finding out that you are a cheater?" I yelled louder then turned to the crowd, "This guy here is my boyfriend and guess what? He fucking cheated on me with a girl!" I announced to them, triggering shocked gasps and murmurs in the small crowd.