THE SWEETEST SIN(BxB)

60: I Feel Like Shit.

GAVIN.

That Monday morning, I was strolling along the crowded hallway, feeling shitty because it's a freakin' Monday; my worst day of the week.

I didn't even wanna come to school today after everything that had happened over the weekend. I wanted to stay in bed and binge reality shows and then munch on snacks till I pass out.

But then I decided last minute to come to school. You know, 'cause I have basketball practice later today. Can't miss that, being captain and all. And the other reason I decided to show up was because of a certain Latino who I miss so fucking much.

I know that we had a messy break up but I haven't stopped thinking of him. It still feels unreal that it's over between us. I really tried to apologize but he didn't want to forgive me. Claimed that he wanted nothing to do with me. And it hurt so fucking much.

I tried numbing the pain by drinking and getting high on Brianna's pill but it didn't really work like I had expected. Sure I had a little bit of fun on the dance floor with her and forgot about my shit for a second. I wish she had given me something stronger.

Oh, the highlight of my fucking weekend was when I ended up in a jail cell with a bunch of criminals and smelly drunkards. One guy literally took a shit in a bucket, right in front of everyone. It was the most disgusting and disturbing thing I have ever witnessed. I am never going back in there, I swear.

I'd rather go to a monastery.

Anyway after I had been released on bail, I tried calling Carlito but he had blocked my number and the calls weren't going through. So, I went over to his place to try and talk things out but a woman who I learnt was his aunt, literally pointed a hand gun on my groin then told me and I quote: 'Don't you ever talk to my sobrino or look in his direction or so help me God, I will blow your cojones right off.'

Yup. She literally threatened my balls. I admit, I was scared for a second that she was gonna do it. What if she actually went through with it? Does that mean I would have lost my balls? I mean how would my dick have looked without balls? Can a dick even function without balls?

You know what? Imma ask Mrs. Hanna since she's clearly the smartest biology teacher I know.

That morning while I was navigating the hallway, teenagers who literally had nothing going on for them, were gawking at me. Some of them had the audacity to gossip me in my fucking face.

"Did you know that Gavin got arrested and spent a night in jail?" Some squirrel toned bitch gossiped.

"Really? Why was he arrested?" Another inquired, seemingly too interested in my shit. Honestly don't these kids have better things to do with their pathetic lives?

"Heard a rumour that he killed someone." Oh for fucks sake! If you're gonna spread rumours about someone, get the facts fucking straight.

"Oh my god, he's a murderer. Why did they let him go?"

"His parents are influential so obviously they pulled some strings and had him freed." Her statement held some truth in it. Yes, after my unfortunate arrest mom's lawyer worked his magic and I was released from custody. I expected mom to scold me or yell my ears off but she was awfully calm about the whole me-getting-arrested thing.

Somehow her being calm about the situation scares me more. What is she cooking in that head of hers? Or is this her way of showing that she's finally changed from her old ways? Has she finally gone soft on me? Maybe. But it's still kinda hard to believe because Octavia Winston never lets anything slide.

That reminds me, my parents will be arriving in the course of the week for the annual charity gala which is going to take place over the weekend. Which means I have a shit ton of things to overlook for the event before their arrival. I'll be burning the midnight oil a lot this week.