Soulmate

ocean waves

When I woke up, I could hear waves crushing in the distance.
It was kinda weird feeling, that I didn't hear wind against the trees.
I slowly opened my eyes and realized I'm not beside Sam.

"Oh my god," I shouted. Person lying next to me immediately woke up too.

"What what?" she said and grabbed my hand.

"You're real?" I jumped out of bed and I get away from her.
"Where am I?" I was looking around me.

"Baby it's me, we're in Malibu. What are you talking about?" she looked at me confused.

"Malibu?" I asked shocked.

"Yes, did you have a bad dream?"

"You won't even believe me."

I was back in Malibu?
How?
It was her.
The first one.
First Kylie.
My Kylie.

"Come here," she grabbed my hand and pulled me onto the bed again.

"I-this is insane Kylie," I was breathing very hard.

"Tell me," she quickly put her t-shirt on and she looked at me. I didn't even notice we were both naked.

"I was dreaming that you left and you broke up with me here in Malibu, your dad hurt you and you get back to me and we were okay and then you left to Arizona and and-" I said quickly and I was trying to breathe slowly.

"Calm down please," she wanted to kiss me but I pulled away from her.

"And then I woke up and I thought it was a dream and all of you were different people and it started once again when I moved to LA and I saw you clearly and I was dating Sam and you and I were almost together and and I woke up now. It was like 2 dreams in one," I started crying, my whole body was shaking.

"Are you for real?" she looked at me confused.

"Yeah," I said quietly.

"What the fuck?" she started laughing

"Why are you laughing?" I started crying even harder.

"Babe calm down okay? It was just a dream," she hugged me.

"No, it was-it was real. I swear," I said slowly. I wasn't able to breathe properly.

"I believe you, but you need to calm down okay? Shhhh," she whispered into my ear.

"You don't fucking get it," I put on my shirt and I get up from the bed and I stood up on the other side of the room.

"Grace, we can talk about it okay? And what do you mean I left you? You know I would never broke up with you. It was just a dream. I love you. Please come back to bed, let's talk," she said slowly, she chose her words carefully and she was speaking them precisely for me to calm down.

I sat on a ground and I started crying again.

I don't know why I was crying.

She was back.

She never left me.

She still loves me.

But I was scared.

She got up from bed and she sat on the ground next to me and she wrapped her arms around me.

"Please tell me this isn't dream," I whispered after while.

"It's not. I'm here baby," she chuckled.

"Don't leave."

"Never," she kissed my forehead.

"Promise?"

"I already told you. I'm not leaving you. I love you baby," she said without hesitation.

"Why this happened to me?"

"Tell me everything."

We moved onto the bed and we sat next to each other. I told her everything. Every detail. Every story. Even every detail with Sam. I told her about how she left me. About her other personality.
She was quiet and she was listening to me in amazement. She hugged me tightly after I said everything to her.

"It's okay, I'm here. This is reality, I swear," she whispered and then she connected our lips.

According to the literature and basic information on the internet we can describe dream as some type of sucession of images, ideas, sensations and emotions that usually occur in our minds during sleeping. Dreams can also express our deepest fears and desires.

I learned that people can't have dreams with people they've never met or seen on the picture. Our mind can't make up new face just by itself. You have to see that person first.

This was just a dream, thats's why i remember it so well, because I saw it before. I saw Los Angeles, I saw every detail so perfect because I was there. Everything from the second I woke up here before, was just a dream.
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Until now.

She never left me, she didn't argue with her dad, she didn't go to Arizona, she wasn't with Laura and I wasn't with Sam. It was just in my head.

Everything I thought I experienced was just sucession of my thoughts in my head. This will haunt me forever now and the thought of happening it again and losing her all over again will hurt my mind all the time.

The time I was spending with Sam was wonderful. Every single kiss, hug and touch was the most amazing thing I could imagine, his soft words and actions. He was perfect, so as Kylie. I wasn't considering Kylie in my dream as much as Sam. Kylie is here, Kylie is real and she's my life. She always been and always will be. No matter what I do, she'll be still my soulmate. Here. Or in another world.

Just her and me.
Kylie and Grace.

*1 everything from "Limbo - Part 19 : who loves me?" is just a dream until this part