Soulmate

experimenting

Me: what is it?

Emily: I don't want to talk about it over phone, can you come over tomorrow morning?

Me: of course :)

"Dad?" Sam asked after I put my phone back to my bag.

"No, just a friend. She need help with something in the morning," I said and I put my hand on his shoulder. Having no idea what would happen tomorrow.

This was the best evening I've ever had in Los Angeles. There's nothing comapared to this, not even dinner with Kylie.

He was telling me stories how they all moved into the dorm, about his parents and pets they have at his parent's house. He also promised me he will introduce me to his parents and that he's more than sure that they'll love me.

I've been thinking about that I want to make this very official and that he'll be officially my boyfriend because we haven't discussed it yet. But I feel that he'll ask me first, he was behaving kinda weird for the past week and I feel that he is hiding something from me. And my mind was right. Once again.

"Hey listen Grace," he said. My heart started pounding very fast.

"I have a surprise for you, but I don't know if you want that," he said calmly and quietly.

"What surpise?"

"I won't tell you," he said. The part of me really wanted to be his girlfriend.

"Then why are you starting?" I said annoyed.

"Just to tease you, we have time for that," he laughed and kissed my forehead.

We were sitting on a beach for another half an hour, we then packed everything and headed to the dorm.

"Romantic evening?" Peter said the second we opened the door.

"Yes," I smiled at him.

"Ooooooh, so how are you gonna end it?" he chuckled.

"Shut up," Sam said and put arm around my shoulder.

"Grace can you make us your great pancakes for breakfast?"

"No."

"Yes." I said at the same time as Sam.

"See? She loves us. You don't."

He pulled me away from the living room and we lied into bed. It was very exhausting day for me to be on sun whole day.

I woke up in the morning, way sooner than Sam.

I headed to the kitchen, I took ingredients from the kitchen and I started making pancakes.

All of them came into the kitchen at the same time.

"Give me a minute and it'll be ready," I said when all of them, expect Sam, were sitting around the table.

"You're perfect Grace," Felix said when he bite to his first pancake.

Sam came after while too, they were all eating and I were looking at them for distance. They were loudly laughing on something Peter said.

And this was the moment I realized I really love Sam. I love how he can bright up the room. I love how he is treating his friends, how he is treating me. I love everything about him and I was more than sure about this. I was more sure than I was sure about anything else.
I was more sure about him than about Kylie. Kylie was just a dream. Not a reality. He's now my reality. He is everything.

After breakfast he drove me to Emily's house.
Her mom opened the door for me. She was very happy that she saw me.

"Hi, Emily is in her room, come inside," she said with smile on her face.

I went up the stairs and I knocked on her door, then I come in.

"Hi," I smiled at me. She was sitting on her bed and I sat next to her. "What's wrong?

"I've been thinking about something," she said quietly and calmly.

"About what?"

"Like, experimenting. You know, with a girl."

"Yeah?" I can help you find a girl if you want. I know someone who-"

"No," she cuts me off. "It can't be just anyone, I need to trust that person."

"Oh yeah, I totally understand.

She took a deep breath and then she looked at me. "Would you help me?" She asked any I froze.

"I don't know Emily. I really want to helo you, I just don't want things to be weird between us, you know? I respect our friendship and I'm dating Sam."

"It would be just friend helping a friend," she said.

"What if I find you someone you can really really trust?" I asked. I was too afraid.

"You know what? It's fine, just forget I brought it up," she mumbled, "Sorry if I made things weird between us," she said and she looked out of window.

I know that finguring out your sexuality can be hard, I had the same problem when I was younger.

"Do you really want to?" I asked her and she immediately turned to face me.