Insecure

Tension

Isabelle's POV

Ever since Seth visited me two nights ago I have been thinking about that kiss non-stop. I'm pretty sure the doctors think I'm crazy because I keep blushing whenever one of them is even a close distance to my face. I can't figure out what Seth wants. He talks about wanting to be my friend, but his actions scream he wants to be more than that.

He hasn't come to visit me since then, so he must be as freaked out as I am. Maybe? I can't dwell on the thought anymore as I hear the door slam. In enters my mother with a disgusted look on her face.

" Get dressed, the doctors said you could leave now." She folds her arms and sits in one of the chairs. Her eyes widen when she sees me pull out my new clothes. " Where did you get these." She says while pointing an accusing finger at me.

" One of my friends bought them for me." I explain with as little words as possible. She looks over the contents of the items one more time, before her eyes light up at the sight of my new cell phone. " There is no way one of your 'friends' bought this for you. You're nothing special." She says while standing up.

Of course she doesn't think I'm worth anything. " What makes you think that? Because I'm you're mistake or because I ruined your opportunity at a better life?"

I have no idea where my sudden sense of courage came from, but I was not stopping there. " I have you know that I have friends who care enough to visit me in the hospital and buy me presents to make me feel better. Unlike you. Where have you been for the last, I don't know? My whole life! You're never there. You didn't even check up on me when I was in a coma. How can you even call yourself my mother?"

By the end of my monologue I'm panting and on the verge of tears. I see my mother's face turn into shock and then crumble into a look of distain. My mother opens and closes her mouth, trying to formulate the right words, but when she can't muster up the right words she resorts to slapping me across the face.

My head snaps to the side and the sting and after shock of what just happened registers in my brain. I cup my cheek in my hands and turn back to her with an icy glare.

" Isabelle?" I wip my head around to see a confused Seth standing by the now closed door. I didn't even hear him enter. " What the hell is going on?" Now it's my turn to not have the right words to say. I face my mother who looks absolutely horrified that someone caught her.

" S-seth. What are you doing here?" I say, stumbling on my words stupidly. Is that all I could come up with? He walks towards me, not breaking eye contact. I can see him trying to remain calm, but it looks like he's about to freak out and kill my mother. " Mom, why don't you wait outside?" I can't tell you how fast she ran out of the room, but let me just say. Her not being here did not ease the tension at all.

" It's not what it looks like." I squeak. " My mother doesn't normally-"

" Just stop." He shakes his head like he's trying to sort everything out.

" That is not the first time. You're mom hurt you that day too. It wasn't just the soccer ball, was it?"

I shrink under his intense gaze. I know no matter how much I try to deny it, it won't help. I shamefully nod my head. I bite my lip and try to look away from him. He does the unthinkable and engulfs me into a hug. " Why didn't you tell me? Do I not mean as much to you as you mean to me?" He whispers into my ear.

I want to tell him that I do care about him and that I did want to tell him, but all that comes out is a small whimper. I try to cover my mouth as a loud sob escapes my mouth, but it's impossible. He tightens his arms around me and strokes my back as I release all my pent up stress.

After a few minutes my crying starts to die down and he pulls away, so I'm facing him. " I can't stand to see you hurting like this." He says, while wiping a tear away. " You can't stay with her." Panic flashes through my eyes. I know I've always wanted to be free of this burden, but it's hard to leave a place you've grown so attached too.

Seth notices my apprehensiveness and gives me a questioning look.  " You don't want to leave her? How could you not?" He ask in a harsh tone.

I pull away from him. " She's my only family member in this town. I don't know. I don't want to move hundreds of miles away from my friends. I guess I'm just scared." I say, while frantically waving my hands in the air.

My mind can't wrap around everything that's happened. It's like the ground has been pulled from underneath me and there's nothing to hold on too. " I can't just up and leave. Don't you want me to stay?" I ask pleading with him to say yes. His eyes soften at my words.

" Of course I do. I would never want you to leave me." He says while grabbing my hands in his. I can feel the heat radiating off them, making me realize how cold mine are. It's like we're polar opposites. I'm cold and in an abandoned wasteland, while he's livng it up with everyone crawling to be near him.

My eyes are glazed over as the thought paces through my mind.

I'm nothing compared to him.

" Do you want to know why I came back today?" I barely have time to nod my head before he replies. " I wanted to tell you something that has been on my mind for days." He says, as he squeezes my hands firmly. I look up at him confused. " I like you a lot. Not just as a friend. I want to be more than friends. I want to be able to call you my girlfriend." He says, boldly.

I'm speechless as I process what he just said. I want to say I want to be his girlfriend too, but I can't.  If I acted on every emotion I had, I would be dead. I have to stick to my gut on this.

" I- I can't make that happen." I instantly regret saying that as his face fills with pain, before it turns cold. " Why not?"

" It wouldn't work out. Besides, I don't feel that way for you." Every word I say breaks my heart and I know it's hurting him to hear me say this. But I can't bring him deeper into all this chaos.

" liar." He pushes me back until my feet hit the wall behind me. He captures my lips in his and cups the back of my head in his hand, trying to pull me closer. My mind can't keep up as he overpowers me. I barely notice that I closed my eyes and kissed him back, until he breaks us apart and I'm craving more. " Did you like that?"

When my brain kicks in I begin to say 'no' but I'm cut off by Seth kissing me again. He bites my bottom lip, making me moan in pure ecstasy. He takes the opportunity to slip his tongue inside and has no problem taking control. I can't resist anymore, as I entangle my hands in his hair. We kiss for what seems to be hours before we have to stop for air. We're both panting, and smiling at eachother.

" I loved it." I say before pulling him back for thirds.

AUTHORS NOTE

Sorry I haven't updated for a couple weeks now. I've Been busy with school work. I also wanted to get what I wanted to happen in this chapter right. So I was taking my time planning everything out. Anyways, hope you enjoyed how steamy it got.