Insecure

Not over yet

Isabelle POV

" I need you."  It's like my whole body has gone limp. My arms can't move, my legs can't move, my lips can barely form words. All I can do is stare at him. " I know it's probably not what you want to hear but it's the truth. You might not feel important, but you are to me and I won't let a group of girls dictate who I'm friends with." He declares. 

        Suddenly It's like everything hits me at once. My brain starts functioning just enough so I can remember why we need to stop seeing eachother. I'm sick of being tortured by these girls because Seth won't leave me alone. I have to leave him behind. I have to forget about him, no matter how good it felt to have someone on my side. It wasn't meant to be. The only problem is everytime I try to convince myself of this, it doesn't work.

        I hate to admit it but I need him too, which is why it hurt when I tell him goodbye and run off into the woods. I can hear him screaming after me, but I cover my ears so I don't have to face reality. Everything in front of me turn into big blobs as tears begin to fill my eyes. I push through leaves and branches trying to make my way back. After looking around, I begin to realize I don't know where I am.  

I still hear Seth's voice faintly calling for me in the background. I can hear the panicked voice he has and how it cracks as he yells. I don't care, I just have to get away. 

        I don't know how long i've been running, but i'm heaving for air and my throat burns from the from lack of water. It all happens in slow motion. One second i'm on solid ground and the next  I'm tumbling down another hill. I try to grab onto anything, grass, roots, the rocks. I'm moving to fast . At one point I just give up. Maybe this is how I was supposed to die. I actually smile. I won't be tormented anymore, abused, harrassed. I don't care about the pain I feel as I hit my head on the rock at the bottom or how I can see a pool of blood surrounding me. I just close my eyes and wait.

        The last thing I remember seeing before I black out is Seth over my body, screaming for me to wake up.

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        Beep, Beep,Beep...

What is that noise? Everything is dark. All I see is black. I can hear someone talking next to me, but I can't make out what they're saying. 

Beep, Beep, Beep...

        There's that sound again. Where is it coming from? Where am I? Why is it so dark? Is this a dream? I try to force my eyes open, but they won't budge. I try for a second time. The voice in the background starting to get louder. It sounds like a mans voice. When opening my eyes seems like such a hard task I work on moving. I try to move my leg, my arm, but no command I make seems to be getting to my brain. I then settle for just my finger. 

        It takes every ounce of energy I have to force my finger to move. When I feel it. I want to high five myself, but of course I can't do that. What I do hear is the man telling the doctors to come inside. Doctors? Why would he be calling for doctors? The question that's been bugging me since I woke up has finally been answered. I'm in a hospital.

        When that fact sinks in, I can feel my heart rate increasing.

BEEP,BEEP,BEEP!

        I can't be in a hospital why would I be in a hospital? A sharp pain over takes my head, making my ear ring. My eyes suddenly flap open. I look around the white colored room i'm in. The room smells like cleaning products, there is a curtain draped around my bed so I can't see past it until it is whipped out of place by the one person I didn't expect to see.