Lennon's pov
Five times. We did it five fucking times. I've never felt more alive in my life. At the moment we're cuddled up in his bed, his hands tracing lazy circles on my back, my fingers playing in his hair.
"So..." he says, breaking the silane.
"So.." It ill my eyes at him.
"Are we..?"
"Finish your thought darling. You know how I feel about broken English," I snicker.
"Did any of that mean anything to you?"
I look at him, surprised. "We just fucked five times. You know me. If it didn't mean anything, I would have stopped at three."
"Oh thank god," he smiles and kisses me. "So can I tell the world I got you back now?"
"Who said we're back together?" I laugh, pushing him away slightly. "Aren't you supposed to woo me and you know, actually ask me out."
"Will you go out with me?" He grins at me.
"Andy..."
"If it meant something why don't you want me?" His voice shakes slightly.
"It's not that I don't want you!" I exclaim. "I just don't want to rush into something and both of us regret it. And one night of fucking does not make a relationship."
"It did last time."
Ouch.
"Last time also involved months of talking and getting to know each other."
"We fucking know each other now Lenny!" He shouts. "Why the hell is it different? I love you! Why don't you fucking understand that?"
"Because you don't fucking know me anymore! When the hell have we actually talked about who I was when sex or at least some type of kissing didn't come into play along with a shit ton of alcohol? And I honestly don't know you anymore! Since when do you get so god damn pissy and shit because I was seeing someone else? We aren't even together! My god damn vagina and what goes in it is none of your business! I never flew off the handle when you were with Juliet. I got pissed when she was around, but I wasn't telling you to break up with her and shit. Get your fucking self together and calm the fuck down!" I stand up, grab my tee shirt and march to the bathroom.
I turn the water on cold and step in, sitting down on the tiled floor and beginning to cry. Why the hell do I mess everything up? Why couldn't I have just said yes and gone out with him? What the fuck is wrong with me?
I sit and cry for a long ass time. I'm such a cry baby. I'm completely soaked and beginning to shiver. I crawl slowly out of the shower and wrap myself in a towel, whimpering and getting makeup everywhere. I pull on my shirt and open the door slightly, peaking out to see if he's around. I watch as he slowly makes his way into the kitchen before I dash into the bedroom and lock the door behind me. I search through my clothes until finally settling on a big pair of old sweat pants and my tee shirt from Cats. I brush my hair, attempt to clean my face at least a little and cry a bit more. I curl up in the bed and fall asleep.
*~*~*~*
I wake up to the smell of bacon. I slowly get up and stumble into the kitchen to find a plate piled with breakfast food and a note from Andy.
"I'm sorry I pissed you off. I shouldn't have flipped out the way I did. Can we start over? Text me when you get a chance
Xx Andy"
I pull out my phone, smiling, and send him a quick text.
L: Hi
I begin eating and after a few seconds he answers.
A: Well hello stranger! Nice to meet you
L: what???
A: Didn't you read my note??? We're starting over ;)
L: Oooooooh! Well it's nice to meet you too.
A: So, girl I've never met, what's your favorite color?
L: It's indigo, boy I've never met. What's yours?
A: Red. So what's your favorite season?
L: Fall. What about yours?
A: Summer
L: What's your favorite animal?
A: Cat. Yours?
L: Same!!
A: Favorite superhero
L: Ohhh, we're getting down to the gritty stuff! Iron Man. Yours?
A: Iron Man? Really? We can no longer be friends.
L: PLEASE BE MY FRIEND!!
A: Only if you'll admit that Batman is the best
L: Fine.. Batman is the best. Now PLEASE love me!!
A: Love you?
L: I mean.. if that's not weird for you
A: It's not weird. I've always loved you
L: Good.
A: And....?
L: I
L: Love
L: You
L: Too
L: :*
A: Like love love or just friend zone love?
L: Which one would you rather it be?
A: You know exactly which one I'd rather
L: Well, I think it's that one you'd rather
A: Unlike you, I can deal with an I think :P
L: What???
A: That day I said I thought I loved you and you flipped out cause I said I think.
L: Haha I forgot about that
A: It was a bitter sweet moment
L: Yeah. It was
A: So are you still mad?
L: No. And I'm sorry for flipping on you.
A: It's okay. So can I come back upstairs now?
L: Where are you???
A: The atrium of the building.
L: Come back up here you idiot! I want to kiss you
A: I'm on my way!!!
L: Okay good
A: :*
L: I think I love you
A: I think I love you too
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After taking pictures at a Black Veil Brides concert and taking pictures with Andy, Lennon Balakwe posts all her photos to, where else, Instagram. Tagging Andy in all the pictures including a cute photo of himself and Lennon amazingly gets the atten...
