It's not as it seems (Everlark story)

Chapter 8: Coma

Finnick's P.O.V.

Katniss has been in the coma for three weeks now. We're starting to loose hope.

Our parents are forcing us to go to school, but right after we come back here.

Peeta's been really down. He says he's so full of regret.

Kyle is going home with Prim now. He's carrying her in his arms, she's sleeping with her head on his shoulder.

"Oh before I go", Kyle says, as he's remembering something.

He pick something up from his back pocket of his jeans.

"Katniss left this for you, her suicide note for you, we wanted to give it to you earlier but I figured that if she woke up, she wouldn't be so happy if you read it", he says handing me a latter. "But now it seems like she's..."

"Thank you", I interrupt, not wanting to hear the last thing he has to say.

He nods and walks out of the room, with the sleeping Prim.

"What does the note say?" Gale asks.

"Does it look like I've opened it?" I ask looking at him.

He shrugs his shoulders.

I open the letter. It's really Katniss handwriting. There are spots all over the letter. Tears. Katniss was crying while writing this.

"She was crying while writing this", I mumble as I sit down in a chair.

I look at Katniss who's lying in the bed. A wire from her mouth, and a wire into her skin. A beeping machine beside her, showing us her heartbeat.

It physically hurts to see Katniss like this.

"How do you know?" Madge asks looking at me.

"There are spots at the letter", I say.

"Read it out loud Finn", Annie says.

I nod.

"Okay", I say.

I look at the letter. At the small words written in Katniss handwriting. I take a deep breath before I start reading.

"Dear Finnick, Annie, Madge, Gale and Peeta,
You probably got this letter from either Prim, my mother or Kyle, and I'm sorry I had to write this", I start, and I already feel my voice getting thick. "I'm probably already gone when you read this, and maybe you already know that I'm gone. And for that I'm sorry. But I couldn't live anymore. Not with all the bad things I feel about myself".

I hate this. I don't want to read anymore, but I have to. Maybe we can get some answers from it.

"If you go to my funeral, don't think about me as the sad depressed suicidal girl you were friends with. Think of me as the person I once was, the happy girl, think of me as the girl who liked to joke, who was playful, energetic, the girl you became friends with the first day in school".

I remember the first day in school. We all met. It was friendship at the first sight of each other. We all just connected so quickly. And Katniss is right. She always did use to joke and be happy and laugh a lot. She was very energetic and playful. She always was the one seeing positive things in everything bad.

I look at the others. Gale and Madge are standing by the end of Katniss bed. Looking at her, but now they look at me. Annie is standing beside me, we're on the right side of Katniss, and Peeta is standing on the left side of her.

I don't like that she wrote about her funeral like it was something she knew was going to happen. That it's something she has been planning. The knot in my stomach is growing bigger and bigger and my throat is getting drier. But I continue to