A World In Which I Was Me

Chapter 18

"Um, sir we have a problem" A demon wearing the skin of some dead guy, approached Lucifer, who was perched on his throne in hell. He wore a smile on his face, still relishing in his earlier victory of killing the one thing that stood in his way to finally have the apocalypse he dreamed of.

"What is it?" His smile fell and Lucifer rolled his eyes in annoyance, looking at the demon

"It's Avis Ward, she isn't dead anymore" The demon seemed to visibly shrink, and Lucifer's expression slowly changed. There were two ways this could go; Lucifer could kill the demon in anger, or he could seriously injure the demon in anger. 

"What?" He growled between his teeth and began to clench his fists 

"Well, she was. And uh now she isn't" The demon whimpered out and Lucifer yelled, beginning to throw things against the walls and unfortunate demon bystanders

"Bring me, Reid!" Lucifer yelled out and the demon started running for the door, but before he reached it Lucifer snapped his fingers, making the demon turn to dust before their eyes "Go!" 

The other demons left the room scrambling over one another to get to the door. Lucifer gripped the armrests of his throne and his eyes glowed their dark red color. 

"You asked for me, sir?" Reid walked inside the room. Her all-around aura seemed to have changed in the past few weeks. At one point she appeared to be just another girl, but now she looked like a royal. Someone you could picture on a throne.

"When I asked you to kill the demigod, I expected her to stay dead! You wanna tell me why she isn't?" Lucifer's eyes still glowed as he turned back to Reid. Her appearance crumbled the second he stood in front of her. Every ounce of courage or bravery she thought she had disappeared into the pit of fear growing in her stomach. 

"W-what do you mean? We watched her die-" Reid was cut off by Lucifer making a fist with his hand, making Reid unable to breathe. She desperately clawed at her throat, but Lucifer couldn't have cared less

"Stop making excuses. I don't want your bullshit; I want you to take care of it." Reid furiously nodded her head and after another second Lucifer unclenched his fist, making Reid gasp for breath. Before Lucifer could do anything else, Reid ran from the room.

She leaned against a nearby wall, as tears escaped her eyes.

This was all too much. She didn't want this, she just wanted Avis to finally realize what she had done. How she had neglected and forgotten her, left her alone in a world she knew nothing about. 

But it was too late. Lucifer would kill her if she didn't handle the Avis situation. She had to kill her sister. Again.

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"What was it like?" Jasper and Avis were sitting on the bed of a room Sam had told the two they could stay in. They had offered another room for Jasper, but Avis didn't want to take any chances of either being taken again. She just got him back. 

"The Underworld?" Jasper nodded and Avis sighed. For once she decided to let her walls down, let someone know how broken she felt "Honestly it was terrible. I could feel all the life being drained out of me as if I was drowning but the water was freezing around me..." She let her eyes stray away from the section of blanket they had been focused on and looked at Jasper. He was intently focusing on her story, which just made Avis instantly relax. 

"You never told me that" He spoke quietly, remembering the first time she talked about it. Avis had seemed so nonchalant about the whole ordeal, and Jasper believed her. He wishes he hadn't. 

"I never told anyone. I was supposed to be the strong one for you guys, I was the senior member after all" She laughed and Jasper scoffed, adjusting his position on the bed so that they were both staring up on the ceiling, flat on their backs. 

"You never talk about him..." Avis raised an eyebrow looking at him and Jasper turned his head to look at her "You dad"

"Not much to say, he's a dick" Avis bluntly stated and looked back at the ceiling, hoping Jasper didn't notice the painful memories beginning to surface, and the way she wanted to hide behind the comfort of her wall again

"Well that much I know," Jasper looked at her, wondering if he should keep talking. But seeing the way she became guarded again, he realized it wasn't the time. A knock at the door caught both of their attention,

"Hey, you ready?" Sam stood in the doorway, giving the two a bit of an odd look, and Avis nodded. She sat up and walked over to her duffel bag that was thrown against the wall. She opened it, grabbing her keychain, and followed Sam to the map room.

Everyone sat together and Avis pushed away from the thought that this could be the last time she saw them. The deal she made with Hades never said anything about when exactly she would die again, so there was no knowing if she would get to say goodbye.

Even though she had only known them for a few weeks, they felt close. Sam and Dean tried to help her even when Cas told them not to, and even though she was still a little mad at him, Cas had become a close friend that she would miss. 

Now wasn't the time to even think about regretting her decision. All that mattered was taking care of Reid and Lucifer, once and for all.

"Alright, you sure we can't go with her?" Dean looked at Cas and he solemnly nodded. Avis smirked hoping to bring a little levity to the situation 

"Don't worry pretty boy, I'll give you the play by play when I get back" Dean shook his head, but Avis could still see the smile he tried to hide "Thank you all for everything"

Avis then looked at Jasper whose eyes were glued to the floor, almost afraid to look up. Scared that this would be the last time he saw her

"Hey," Avis hugged him quickly and looked up into his eyes "I'm gonna get him"

"That's not why I'm worried Ace. What if you don't make it? I mean didn't the prophecy say this would come at a great cost?" He desperately looked at the others hoping someone else would protest to the situation

"She died, pretty sure that was a great cost" Dean pointed out but everyone looked a bit doubtful 

"Whatever the price is...I'm gonna pay it. He killed Alex, he tortured you, and he used Reid" She reached into her back pocket and handed him the drayon "Here, keep it safe for me alright?"

Jasper nodded, blinking back the tear that came to his eye, and placed it in his pocket

"Oh and," She handed him her keys "No joyrides. She's fragile" Jasper shook his head smiling and Avis took a deep breath 

"Good luck" Sam gave her a quick hug and Avis nodded

"See y'all on the other side" With that a whirlpool of water began surrounding her, as her eyes glowed. When the water was gone, so was Avis. Leaving the people, she cared about alone and blissfully ignorant to the fact they would probably never see her again.