A World In Which I Was Me

Chapter 3

Flashes of memories Castiel had spent years trying to push away filled his mind. Repeatedly dying, being trapped in his own body by the leviathans and Lucifer, being controlled by Naomi, and making mistakes he could rarely make up for.

Cas never wanted to hurt anyone, never wanted to make the world a worse or more complicated place. He liked to believe he helped, but when it really came down to it, was he even needed?

"Is he dead?" A feminine voice filled his ears as the angel began to awake.

"Why would they put him in a cell if he's dead?" A separate, male voice sarcastically responded.

"Both of you, shut it. He's waking up..." A third female voice spoke, but it was different than the others in a way he couldn't quite describe.

Cas sat up, still disoriented from the earlier ringing, and looked around.

He was surrounded by four clear walls, a bed to the right of him, and three others who all intently watched him. Directly across from him, Jasper sat studying the first new person they had seen in a year, next to him Alex stood as close to the wall as she could trying to find out anything, she could about him, and right next to Cas was Avis who seemed to be less interested in studying him than the others. She looked like she simply wanted to calm him down, to talk.

"Where am I?" He tilted his head to the side and let his usual monotone voice fill up the empty space.

"Hey new guy... this is well um" Jasper started but Avis shot him a look and he stopped talking, looking down.

"It's hard to explain... but how about we start with your name?" She tried her best to present a welcoming front, just as she did when Alex and Jasper first arrived, although they were a lot less calm.

"Castiel...Cas"

"Nice to meet you Cas" She gave him a soft smile and then her expression changed to one of confusion. She seemed to be looking at the area behind Castiel "Mind telling me how an angel managed to get taken by a bunch of humans?"

"How did you-" Cas tilted his head to the side and studied the girl in front of him. She wasn't an angel that much was clear, but there was something different about her that he hadn't seen before.

"I can see your wings." She smirked and sat cross-legged in front of their connecting wall.

"Yes, well they had some sort of sonic device that disoriented me..." Cas then started to worry about Dean. Would he think Cas simply left him? Would he even notice he was gone?

"Guess they're improving their game" Alex sighed.

***

"Have you tried calling?" Sam and his brother stood in the library. Dean had just returned home from the simple hunt that ended with him losing his angel

"Of course, I've tried calling Sam! It goes straight to voicemail..." Dean sighed in frustration. Cas hadn't simply vanished in a while, what if something was wrong?

"Maybe he went to heaven or found a lead on Lucifer" Sam tried to calm his brother, hoping he wouldn't get unnecessarily worried.

"Maybe" Dean leaned against the table, trying to push away the thought that crept into his mind. The last time this happened, Cas had been taken over by Lucifer. Dean couldn't let that happen again.

"Just give it a couple of days, if he isn't back by then we'll look for him" Dean nodded and sat down at the table.

1 WEEK LATER

"So why does Avis get taken more often than you if you both have abilities?" Cas had begun to understand the situation they were in and learn more about his fellow captives. The others were simply happy to have a new face, as horrible as it was that there was a new face to see.

"My speed compared to her abilities? She is their golden egg." Alex sighed as fidgeted with the hair tie on her wrist "Besides, they don't fully understand her powers yet, I'm mostly science. She's all DNA"

"Plus, Alex has a crappy bedside manner" Jasper teased making Alex roll her eyes but receiving a small smile from Cas.

"Do you really think your friends might find us?" Alex spoke quietly now, almost afraid to hear the answer.

"If there is anything I know about Sam and Dean it's that they will do anything to protect their friends... so let's just hope I fit the category"