Carmen

Page 15 - 'One more wrong wouldn't hurt, would it?'

(This POV is going to be from the previous page - so I hope this makes sense lol)

On with the story! :)

Lorenzo's POV

When I invited Carmen to the fight, I was hoping for her to run, to never speak to me again because of the violence and the people I hang around with, but instead I think it just brought her closer to wanting to find out more about me, to get involved and that isn't what I wanted. It was to dangerous for me to become close to Carmen, I'd become weak and I can't show my father that as he would soon fine Carmen and kill her in a second.

However, after the victory, I found myself trying to find Carmen, when I noticed her, her smile lit up the room as she was cheering my name along with the crowd. I couldn't help but smile to myself which I never see myself doing. She made me feel something that I've never felt before, happiness.

As I made my way over to my group after the fight, Beth came over and immediately made a fuss over me, jumping into my arms and brushing her hands over my face. We've been on and off for months but I don't see her as the girlfriend type, more a distraction when I need it. As Beth jumped into my arms, I just went along with the motion, catching her, however, my eyes where fixed on Carmen who was watching Beth and I closely, it almost looked as if she was jealous.

After having people around us congratulate me, I finally made my way over to Carmen who was by the bar, taking another shot, she was obviously drunk but I took no notice.

"Congrats Lorenzo" she said, as she noticed my presence, I was hoping for something more but I suppose it was better than nothing, right?

"Thank you, I hope everyone wasn't to harsh on you, I know they can be with the outsiders." I sighed, that comment probably came out worse than it should have.

She raised her eyebrows at me before repeating "Outsiders hm?" she then nudged me jokingly, which made me chuckle.

"It's getting late, want me to take you home?" I asked, trying to change the subject as I didn't like the big crowds and I especially didn't like Beth's constant seductive looks, that were failing to get my attention.

"Are you sure, you don't want to celebrate with the others?" She replied as she was looking around at the group who she had previously been with.

"It's fine, wouldn't be the first time I've won." I replied cockily, while placing my hand on her back to signal her to make way for the exit, she scoffed at my comment which made me smirk as it's pretty easy to irk her.

As we were making our way for the exit, I came to realisation of how much this girl had control over me and I was letting it happen, the amount of times I had let my emotions get the better of me because of her, when Jay tried to take advantage of her, when her shitty excuse for an ex boyfriend started getting clingy and when I picked her up in my car because of the rain, I should've been more of a dick to her, try and push her away but I just couldn't, despite how I've treated her, she still perseveres to try and be there for me, to care for me. And that's what I liked about her, she's the only person who's ever shown that she cares for me and I think that's why I can't seem to drive her away, Because I like the feeling of someone truly caring.

Snapping me out of my thoughts, Carmen decided to try to start a conversation.

"So, what do you actually win for nearly killing a guy?" She joked, I did find it funny, however, my overthinking got the better of me and put me in a shitty mood.

"Money." I replied bluntly, I didn't like the fact that my only way of earning money was fighting, but it's not like I could get out of it, the people I fight are from different mafia's who usually plan to attempt to take over my fathers business, so they come to the bar to try and weaken me instead of my father to try and send a message to him, though it never works.

"I thought that guy was going to kill you tonight, it was dangerous." Carmen grunted, trying to change the conversation, but it only seemed to agitate me more that she'd assume I would die from a pathetic excuse for a fight.

"Yeh well, things that are dangerous are all part of my life Carmen." I scolded, as I started the car.

"Sorry for actually caring." She replied, grunting. She faced the window refusing to make eye contact with me, I sighed and run my hands through my hair. I don't know why I always got like this, it was like a switch, one minute my emotions are all over the place when I'm with her then I just feel, nothing.

All our bickering was starting to get tiring and I feel like Carmen might lose hope in the whole 'Getting to know each other' thing. I knew it was for the best but on the other hand, I couldn't help but want to give up everything and be selfish for her, to let her into my life no matter what my father thinks but I knew that was the wrong decision, however, I've made many wrongs in my life, one more wrong wouldn't hurt, would it?

Let me know what you think of this as this is my first Lorenzo POV, sorry it's quite repetitive!

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