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You know... I haven't written here in a bit... I thought I was doing better... But no... My mental health plunged... Things came back to me. I'm losing people. And when I try to talk things out. It downfalls... I broke down while driving. But the thing is, I've been trying to tell all my friends what's been going on for months. But I don't like attention on me. It's so fucking difficult to say it. I almost did when I was at my best friend's house. But I started crying, I don't know if she noticed... But a topic like that isn't easy for me, or anyone.
Since this year started, everything changed. She calls someone else her best friend. We don't talk like we used to.
Anything I talk about, it gets downgraded. But not just me, another friend too. And fucking old thoughts keep coming back.. I just missed the way it used to be.
I'm scared I'm going to lose you to someone else, but to be honest, I think that's already happening.
You know... I have what I wanted to say written out. I just don't know when to send it. When it's a good time. But with a topic like that, there is never a good time. I've always said I hate myself. Sometime I think people think I'm joking. I never have been.
I'll just say, I'm not okay. And at this point, I should be next to go to LHC.
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To Whom it May Concern
RandomThis is kinda my own little journal where I can rant or talk to you about it, it's where I can get advice from you guys. Please don't talk about it outside of this. I want to keep it in this journal. If you don't want to read this then that's fine...
