To Whom it May Concern

To Whom it May Concern: Brother

Well, I thought things were going well but I guess not. I thought I would never write in this but I guess not. My oldest brother decided to be an asshole. His baby, that was born in July, was crying so I picked him up. I took him to his dad so he can watch him so I can do my chores then he got mad because I "spoil" him. Then he called my mom so because apparently I "wasn't doing my chores". And he called me a bitch every time I walked past him. So I started crying and walked out. Mom called me and got mad at me because I wasn't doing my chores and I was crying. My brother told me I wasn't allowed to touch my nephew.

Of course I didn't cuss him out because I'm that "good child" who doesn't cuss, drink, have sex, and that shit. I only cuss but it still pisses me off. He hasn't done shit that proves that he actually loves me like what mom says he does. Bullshit! He pushed me into my dresser, trapped me in a corner and roughly grabbing my arms, dragged me into my room and locked me in, thrown me onto the couch, gotten in my face, yelled at me and called me names, many things that haven't proved shit that he loves me.

Oh, and guess who gets in trouble? Me! My mom doesn't do anything she believes the oldest, of course! The joy of being the only girl in the house is being pushed around. They always ask for me to make them something and if I say no, my mom will force me to do it. I can't tell the fucking future. They need to learn how to do it themselves. I don't know if they are going to get a fucking wife. Hell, I would be surprised if they do since they are treating me like shit. Fuck, I'm not your personal slave. He's fucking 22 years old and he doesn't cook for himself and he puts his fucking hands on me!?

My mom asked if I was scared of him and I wanted to answer yes but, fuck, I didn't say shit like the dumbass I am. I do love my brother but it's slowly fading away each time he decides to do something stupid.

Fuck, I don't know what to do with him